respecting women

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More little things on Twiggy

Sudden changes in behavior or actions
Disorientation
Cycles of hyper alertness followed by suddenly nodding off
Droopy appearance, as if extremities are heavy

Lying or other deceptive behavior
Avoiding eye contact, or distant field of vision
Substantial increases in time spent sleeping
Increase in slurred, garbled or incoherent speech
Hostile behaviors toward loved ones

Nausea and vomiting
Feeling of heaviness
Intense cramping in limbs, resulting in “kicking”
Crying
Insomnia
Cold sweats
Chills
Runny nose

Usually;
Smoking: inhalation orally through a pipe
Snorting: inhalation directly through the nose, possibly using a straw

Rarely;
Intravenously: direct injection into a vein using a needle

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(just a random creepy drabble; fiction)
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I had always needed to throw up since last week, and at this point it was getting to me. The blood rushed to my ears and I felt nauseous and dizzy. My balance was out of proportion, too. I'd kill just to puke finally and let this subtle bothering be dealt with. Believe me, I've taken a few pills all week just to throw up. But nothing happened. I was frustrated and worried to say the least. When I got home I downed a few pills, probably more than necessary but it didn't matter in the moment - I was spazzing out. The sick feeling of the side affects and the subtle feeling of chunks in your throat every time you swallow is ridiculous and could drive me crazy... so crazy I even starved myself all week. I bent over the toilet and shoved my fingers down my throat, yeah, it came to that. Nothing came up, I just gagged and gagged. So I did the next best thing and grabbed my tooth brush and shoved it down my throat, practically bending backwards in anticipation.

Tears welled in my eyes as nothing happened, I scraped the end of the toothbrush at the top of my throat and then the bottom. Taking my toothbrush out of my mouth, I downed a few pills.. that's when the pills came right back up. This was it, wasn't it? I grabbed the toothbrush once again but before I knew it I was puking on my restroom floor. The force of it was so great it ripped a vein in my nose and blood spurt out from my nostrils and my eyes went bloodshot. I didn't care though, it was happening! I moved to the toilet and kept going for a while honestly, blood painting the seat occasionally along with some of the vomit. While the sight of all this swished around, the dizziness from earlier came back in a fog inside of me. Though it was worse this time. My vision began to blur as I dropped to the floor, still hacking up everything possible to leave my stomach, blood dripping from my nose messily and onto my mouth and chin. I had completely passed out.

When I woke up, I was in a gross wet pool of vomit and blood. The feeling of chunks never left the depths of my throat. I was infuriated! So infuriated I didn't acknowledge the fact I was covered in my own vomit and blood, so I stood up and began to.. as embarrassing as it sounds, punch at my stomach. I gagged over and over and grabbed the dirty tooth brush and shoved it down my throat as I slammed my stomach on the edge of the sink. I didn't know what the f*** to do. That's when I stormed into my room, grabbed my metal baseball bat, and sloppily slammed it at my stomach. I probably looked crazy, but I wasn't. I just wanted to get rid of what was driving me crazy. It wasn't working, I didn't have a good angle. What else.. what could squeeze both sides of my stomach so the chunks would splurt out?

My eyes caught sight of my door. Yeah, you bet I laid on the floor between the door and the doorway. I got a good grip on it, and with no hesitancy, I slammed it closed onto my stomach. I did that over and over but all that happened was it cut into my skin and blood had escaped from it and onto the door. I was sick and tired, so I closed it, but began to slowly close it even more. Closer and closer, harder and harder. I could hear the cracks inside of me, I could feel my organs clearly. It felt good; it felt extremely satisfying. I pushed the door closed even more and choked on air, my eyes rolling back into my head. I started coughing, and out came what I didn't expect. Something that had the texture of some kind of meat ripped through my throat, forcing its way into my mouth. My throat started to burn and I felt it get hot, probably from the blood. Whatever it was that I just let out of my stomach and subconsciously violently through my throat f***ed it up. I tried to wheeze but my mouth was full with whatever IT was. It barley even fit in my mouth.

My mouth was opened as far as it could go. It was torture, f***ing torture, but satisfying. I could hear the little cracks from my jaw being slowly stretched and broken due to the enormous chunk of meat in my mouth. I needed it out, NOW. For many reasons. Satisfaction, it hurt and I don't want to choke to death on it. So I did what came to mind through my own panic and hooked my two hands around my jaw, my fingernails scraping at my gums below my bottom teeth, and began to pry my jaw open. As I did I heard my jaw rip, it sounded horrifying. It wasn't like a sound I'd ever heard before.. as it was also extremely fulfilling. I tugged harder and harder at my jaw before it practically ripped off and that chunk of meat fell flat out of my mouth- it wasn't a chunk of meat. It was very well one of my own organs.

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#1. What's a nickname only your family calls you? jeje,,
#2. What's a weird habit of yours? i usually
look away. all the time. um. i pick at my nail polish a lot.
and chew on my tongue sometimes.
#3. Do you have any weird phobias? yeah
#4. What's a song you secretly love to blast and belt out when you're alone? i blast and belt out whatever whenever
#5. What's one of your biggest pet peeves? stupid people
#6. What's one of your nervous habits? i don't know
#7. What side of the bed do you sleep on? in general i sleep on marilyn but when i do sleep alone i sleep at the end of the bed
#8. What was your first stuffed animal and it's name? it was a bear and i named it sleeping sloth
#9. What's the drink you always order at starbucks? i never go there
#10. What's a beauty rule you preach, but never actually practice? wait what
#11. Which way do you face in the shower? face at the thingy faucet thing
#12. Do you have any 'weird' body 'skills'? yes.
#13. What's your favorite comfort food thats 'bad' but you love to eat it anyways? everything thats bad
#14. What's a phrase or exclamation you always say? i dont know i just say stuff
#15. Time to sleep, what are you actually wearing? something i was wearing during the day or lingerie

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Full name☆
Twiggy Peanut Butter Ramirez

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Zodiac sign☆
Gemini (oh sh*t fam lmao dw he's chill 24/7)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆3 fears☆
Humanity, feelings and hair combs

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆3 things I love☆
my many chihuahuas, music and makeup

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆4 turn ons☆
(Literally anything, it could be a slice of bread and Twiggy would be like
"oooh f*** ME UP")

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆4 turn offs☆
(Once you have him going you cannot turn it off)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ☆My best friend?☆
marilyn and myself
i talk to myself on webcam a lot

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Sexual orientation?☆
(Bi, usually described as the "gay Mexican bassist")

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆My best first date?☆
(Not sure, let's just say he explained a very boring one)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆How tall am I?☆
5'9" (I RP Twiggy when he was still f***ing sh*t up with Marilyn so
I took off 2 inches)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆What do I miss?☆
my dog
(Some exes, having a clean and fresh mentality)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆What time was I born?☆
(He,, he doesn't know
nor does he care)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite colour?☆
Green or pink

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Do I have a crush?☆
On everyone ;)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite quote?☆
"spaceghost"

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite place?☆
The bar

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite food?☆
Cake atm

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Do I use sarcasm?☆
no of course not what a silly question

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆First thing I notice in a new person?☆
their nose (twiggy what)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Shoe size?☆
idk (they look small)

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Eye colour?☆
brown

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Hair colour?☆
f***ing
black

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite style of clothing?☆
anything that's a dress or feminine as sh*t
or weird

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Ever done a prank call?☆
yes. manson knows a lot of girls phone numbers.
thanks for those, random fans.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆What colour underwear am I wearing?☆
pink

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Meaning behind my URL?☆
someone asked me a question and i asked if she said "spaceghost"
but she said "scapegoat" apparently but like i wasn't listening

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite movie?☆
the exorcist is really up there

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite song?☆
too many. way too many,,

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite band?☆
not sure

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Someone I love.☆
what's his face

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Favourite holiday?☆
valentines day because it's so insignificant

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Piercings I have.☆
i actually have ear piercings
anything else is censored

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Last book I read?☆
Columbine i think

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?☆
holy f***

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☆Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?☆
so loud that vampires would get a hard on from your ears afterwards at the crazy amount of blood that's gushing from them