▮▮ FIG. 1  :  #BASIC_IDENTIFICATION_OF_ISKRA_LAWRENCE.    
        " and, lord, don’t let me break this. let me hold it lightly. give me arms to pray with, instead of ones that hold too tightly. "

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀๑♡՞.. ⠀⠀>⠀⠀iskra arabella⠀lawrence,⠀⠀⠀⠀if you cracked me open --- i'm pretty sure you would see a sea full of happy
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀rambles, constant teasing, never-ending smiles. tons of pent-up aggression, pettiness... gigantic bear hugs, the smell
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀of warm coffee on cold mornings, big sweaters. loads of endless memories of the beach, ideas for oil paintings and lil’
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀adventures. a bucket of gentle.. soft .. sweet.. maybe rough.. endless kisses, 'i miss you's' and 'i love you's', hundreds
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀of disney movie references, hours and hours of late night phone calls, cake recipies by the dozen, a dictionary of cute
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀nicknames, album upon album of bubble bath singalongs, the scent of a thousand flowers, an encyclopedia of puns
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀and cheesy pick lines, hours of listening to the rain, perfume samples by the truck load, bottles of sex appeal, days
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀upon days of makeup tutorials, body positivity galore, tons of left over chinese, long glares at ignorant people, mama
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀bear tendencies, and a bunch of alone time

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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀FADE-IN:
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ACT-IV, PART-I, SCENE-II:


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀AN INTRODUCTORY BLOG —— A PLACE FOR THE CURIOUS TO RESIDE.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ⠀⠀LAST UPDATED, MAY 20, 2022, UNKNOWN TIME.


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀TROPES: [ some tropes are orignial ideas, others are from : tvtropes.org. will be updated as the admin sees fit. ]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀a house fey, "the fae that has taken residence in a household; kind, caring, and magical!" light femininity swallows
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀the dark, "when being hopeful and angelic gets overbearing, devouring everything considered it's counterpart in it's
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀wake." pretty butterflies, "symbols of the wind, reincarnation, transformation, the soul, and magic throughout the
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ages. depictions of such offer grace, beauty, and happiness." good vs. good. "the philosophical struggle of what it
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀means to be 'good'. the inward struggle between the heart and the mind. morality and emotional. the soul and
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀livelihood." good is not dumb, "a sincerely good, kind, and polite character is underestimated by others because
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀of their kind nature." bad girl gone good, "the party girl, unruly girl, unhinged .. turns over a new leaf." when a
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀sister becomes a mother, "in the absence of authority figures, a sibling steps up; either forced or not. in this case,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀it's a sister."
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀AESTHETICS: [ stagnant for the most part because the admin develops most of their characters on aesthetics and
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀poetry they muse over. if change is needed, this will be changed to better fit the character's current description. ]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀aphrodite's tears, angel feathers, soft sunsets, r&b playlists, silk sheets, lip gloss, blinding highlight, golden hour
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀nymph artwork, baby pink accessories, torn love letters, fluttery false lashes, summer romances, lil' chanel bags,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀broken champagne glasses, gold jewelry, soft fairy lights, sundresses, crooked smiles, pink tulips, iced coffee,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀honeymooning, calming down, from eden with love, day drinking, condensation and morning dew, a siren's song
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀swan lake, lovemakers, a cupid's revenge, skin on skin, swan lake, how people call in love, periwinkle pillows,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀archangels, being obsessed with your muse, wet dreams, diamond dust & angel lines.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀PIVOTAL-STORY-ARCS: to be written.

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀PLAYLIST: spoti.fi/3yML0xo ⠀:⠀⠀[ updated almost daily. ]

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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀biological-name: sofia jasmeena jamora. legal-name: sofia jamora.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› nicknames: sofy, sof, butterfly [via mom], baby, princess, fairy [via friends], sweetpea [lennon], more to be added.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀birthday: may sixth, nineteen ninety—seven; [05/06/1997]. age: twenty-five. [25].
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› western-natal-chart: taurus sun, taurus moon, cancer rising, aries mercury, taurus venus, virgo mars.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀birthplace: calabasas, california, usa. current-location: calabasas, california, usa. —— los angeles, california, usa.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀gender-identity: cisgender woman. primary-pronouns: she/her/hers.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀racial-ethical-background: caucasian from father, latina + pacific islander from mother. identifies more with latinx roots.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› religious-background: a spiritualist. grew up with loose christian / catholic beliefs, but abandoned all previous
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀teachings upon leaving. currently, she is practicing polytheism [her deities being aphrodite & persephone] and believes
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀heavily in astrology.

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀education: high school graduate with not much education after that.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀occupation: instagram model, social media influencer.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› future-goals: unsure of future goals. in the future, whether distant or close, sofia plans to make her love for baking a
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀full—time career; wanting to become a small business owner and open her own vegan bakery. however because these
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀plans aren't exactly fleshed out, she doesn't speak about them with people she's not close to.
     ⠀⠀place-of-residence: three—bedroom, two—story home in los angeles. no plans of moving anytime soon.
     ⠀⠀social-financial-status: born into an upper middle—class family, individually considered middle. financially stable.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› criminal-history: absolutely none.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀dietary-habits: has been a vegetarian for two years; bordering on vegan. detests animal products but still eats them based
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀solely on habit. cooks for herself most of the time; eats fast food on friday evenings. consumes a lot of baked goods & fresh
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀fruit. fitness-regime: partakes in yoga and meditation regularly. rarely visits the gym unless asked to.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀pets: 4 dogs. [labeled oldest to youngest]: bernadette, or bugzy, cocker spaniel. rosebud, or rosey, dalmatian. baby, cocker
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀spaniel. rory, cavalier king charles spaniel.
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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀sexuality: bi-romantic, & ... demi-sexual. preference: doesn’t have a preference for the gender of her partners but tends
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀to end up pursuing masculine beings. strictly monogamist. placement: considers herself to be a submissive partner, has
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀never tried to be dominant nor does she think she has the capacity to.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀sexual-activity: not active, no capacity to change as of right now.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› libido: has an unhealthy relationship between intimacy and self-worth. for a long time, sofia did not place her value
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀as a person apart from what she could contribute to her partners sexually. after intensive therapy, sofy is learning to
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀separate her value away from intimacy. naturally, her sexual drive is fairly high, higher than the average person. however,
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀she often refuses to act on her impulses.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀as-a-partner: an attentive, protective, selfless partner. more often than not, when she's in love sofy has a tendency to put her
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀partner's needs above everything else; including her own. she struggles with sticking to boundaries, seeming to disregard her own
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀needs to appease anyone and everyone willing to love her. she has lacked power in past relationships and in future ones, and she
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀plans on changing that about herself. regardless of that, codependency will always loom to some degree. high levels of sensibility,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀empathy, and respect; and even though sofia does not believe it, she is a great communicator in regards to her wants and needs
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀in a relationship.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› relationship-preference: steering clear of relationships at the moment, but when she does decide to try relationships
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀again; more often than not, she will be looking to date—to—marry.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀current-partner: not available at this time.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› status: not available at this time. important-dates: not available at this time.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀previous-partners: [labeled most significant to least] zayn malik, austin walker, jordan de clerck, rico hernandez, spencer mow.


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀hair: born brunette, a natural golden walnut in the summer and chestnut in the winter; dyed honey—blonde or ombre from a
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀warm sepia to honey.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› usual-style: usually worn down or in beach waves, has an affinity to blend long extensions into her natural hair.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀eyes: upturned eyes, bordering on almond. olive—green in hue; mostly compared to being feline—like. whether that be because
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀of their shape or color is up for debate.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀build: slim with a curvy figure.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› height: five feet, six—seven inches. [5'6—7] or one hundred and seventy centimeters [170].
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› weight: a hundred and forty—two pounds. [142lbs.] or sixty—four kilograms [64kg].
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀style-overall-aesthtetic: dependent on personal interests at the time but more often than not she adores cottagecore clothing
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀and aesthetics; also follows popular instagram trends regarding clothing and hair.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› go-to-outfit: [heavily dependent on the current season] currently; summer dresses; all varying in color, cut and length.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀gold jewelry. white or assorted colored, platform mary-jane heels.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀scarring: none worth noting. tattoos: depiction of a glasswing butterfly tattoo between her breasts, drawn and tattooed by a
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀friend. piercings: three ear lobe piercings on her right ear plus her helix, three ear lobe piercings on her left plus her helix,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀nipple piercings with heart cuffs or heart-studded bar, recently got her tragus pierced.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀scent: tends to smell like flowers, fresh fruit, or warm honey.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀extras: mall hoops and little gold chains are her favorite accessories. adores heels, lingerie + frilly dresses or sundresses prefers
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀gel over acrylic nails.


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀physical-habits, fidgets when bored or anxious. taps nails on tables and chairs when being impatient. rolls her eyes frequently.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀avoids eye contact when speaking to others. doesn't like to be touched without permission. constantly wiggling her nose and
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀eyebrows. bites lip and licks lips a lot. probably playing with someone's jewelry and/or tattoos. frequently holds the hand of
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀people she trusts, especially in public twirls hair when being impatient. hands shake when anxious, rubs hands or fingers
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀together to mask it. rubs face or temples when angry.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› facial-expressions, scrunches up nose when lying. often seen smiling or pouting, hardly seen without either.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀verbal-habits, constantly teasing and giggling. will make up words to confuse those she is talking to just for fun. rarely curses,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀only does so when angry. speaks informally. will flirt with you then tell you, she hates you. may come off as bratty or rude when
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀taken out of context. grumbles/mumbles when upset. will yell for no reason at all. makes random noises when flustered.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀languages, english, knows a couple of phrases in hawaiian; currently trying to learn spanish.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀personal-dialects-tones, blithe and cheery or theatrical. heavy west—coast slang usage, with personal words substitutes for
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀triggering topics [more analysis needed]. heavy use of 'like', 'uh', 'yeah' and other conjunctions.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› voice, silvery and singsong, tendency to elongate her vowels. generally soft-spoken in person, and rarely strays away
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀from that volume in public.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› in-speech, a very bubbly conversationalist when she's comfortable, strays from topic to topic with no issue of keeping
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀a conversation going.


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀skills-hobbies-other-attributes, avid baker, art & butterfly collector, flower connoisseur, color enthusiast, crystal lover.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀likes, folklore/mythology, crime shows, the ocean/beach, video games, margaritas, animals, messing around, working, gold
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀jewelry, intimacy, astrology, movies, modeling, photography, museums, art, aesthetics, anything heart-shaped, cottages,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀flowers, iced tea, vintage knick-knacks, faux fur coats, organization, purple things, indoors, periwinkle, chocolate[milk,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ice cream, bars], strawberry fanta, iced coffee, making new friends, doing layouts, insects [butterflies mostly], getting her
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀nails done, the sound of rain.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀dislikes, dolls, most pop stars, modern art, sports [except volleyball & badminton), dark places & creepy things, board games
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀classical/old music, being told what to do, sparkling water, reading, weird smells, the feeling + sound of chalk, seeing body
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀modification, being late, horror/gore-y movies.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀favorites, pocahontas or princess and the frog [movie], the witcher, always changing [tv show], purple/periwinkle [color],
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀lemonade [scent], wisteria [plant], causal by thomston [current song], noodles or chocolate ice cream [food], iced mocha [drink],
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀henri adrien tanoux [artist], non-applicable [person], cottageore [aesthetic], butterfly houses with malka and leilani [memory].
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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀FADE-IN:
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ACT-IV, PART-I, SCENE-III:


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀AN EXPOSITORY BLOG —— A PLACE FOR THE CURIOUS TO RESIDE.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ⠀⠀LAST UPDATED, MAY 20, 2022, UNKNOWN TIME.


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀diagnosis, obsessive compulsive disorder. diagnosed, at twenty-four. a condition that causes someone to be caught in a cycle of
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀obsessions [distressing thoughts & feelings] & compulsions [a way of acting out those thoughts & feelings].
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› behavior: in sofia's case, her obsessions tend to be hyper-analyzing the well-being of her loved ones, perfectionism [especially
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀regarding herself and her physical property such as: her home], fixating on her speech to not hurt or offend others, and
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀cleanliness. the main vice sofia uses whenever she is feeling distressed or out of control is cleaning, writing and the repetition of
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀certain words or phrases. in extreme cases, if sofy feels her mind is still troubling her -- she will "make" a mess to clean it up;
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀often she'll break things that hold little to no value to her, re-washing clothes, redecorating for hours.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› treatment: see 'therapy' below.

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀diagnosis, insomnia, diagnosed at twenty. a sleep disorder in which someone has trouble falling asleep or staying asleep due to
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀an underlining mental illnesses [such as anxiety.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› behavior: during sofy's times of restlessness, she usually has trouble with focusing, her short-term memory, her anxiety, slow
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀motor functions, & imbalances in her mood.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› treatment: sofy usually has a routine that she goes through to keep a constant sleep schedule. as of late, she fell off of it &
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀regularly stays up for days at a time before crashing.

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀diagnosis, social anxiety. diagnosed at fifteen. a condition in which every day social interactions causes someone anxiety, self-
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀consciousness, & the irrational fear of being judged, humiliated or offending someone to the point at which the person who has
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀it feels it is out of their control.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› behavior: when sofy is involved in certain social interactions such as meeting someone for the first time, dates, eating around
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀others, being around or in a large crowd, being around strangers going to the store / work / etc. she experiences the following
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀symptoms; severe face-flushing, sweating, trembling, nauseousness, making as little eye contact as possible, being softly-spoken,
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀distancing herself from others, etc.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› treatment: sofia treats her anxiety by taking xanax regularly & not partaking in activities that would spark up a potential
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀anxiety attack. also see 'therapy' below.

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀triggering-topics: sex [in general and sexual assault], drugs [narcotics], loud noises, aggressive cursing, being apart of or seeing
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀large crowds / gatherings.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀stability: stable. has been stable for a long time, tendency to have an off—day here and there but nothing to be concerned about.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀therapy: psychotherapy every other saturday between noon and one pm. via zoom or in—person appointment dependent on her
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀work schedule. has received additional therapy in the past for trauma regarding her upbringing and damaged relationships but no
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀longer thinks therapy will aid her in her healing process.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› suggested-coping-mechanisms: journalism, aromatherapy, and partaking in a multitude of different hobbies.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀medications: xanax [0.25mg, two times a day].

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀addictions-vises: has kicked most of her habits listed.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› drinking-habits: a social drinker. usually ingests alcohol if masked by another flavor.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› smoking-habits: does not like nicotine at all, has never smoked of nicotine in her life.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› drug-habits: used to be a pothead and recreational xanax user. she no longer gets high on either.


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀sense-of-self: (how does she feel about herself, is she self-aware, etc.)
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› worldly-perception: (how does she think others feel about her.)
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀fears: love and commitment. being hurt. being abandoned. small, tight and crowded places.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀innate-beliefs: if enough people believe in something, it will exist [this goes for everything both small and ridiculous]. money is dumb.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀there are completely good people, completely bad people, but most people are both good and bad. everyone leaves sooner or later.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀everyone is capable of change. butterflies are good luck and earthbound angels.

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀moral-alignment: dependent on the day; chaotic good or lawful good.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› generalized-temperament: sanguine and phlegamatic.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› character-archetypes: INFJ-T; the advocate. the innocent; embodies sincerity, sympathy, and mortality to their very core.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀average-confidence-level: slightly below average, wants to make changes to her perception of herself.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀general-sense-of-humor: playful, child-like and usually very over-dramatic.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀positive-traits: naturally argumentative, competitive, and protective person, more often than not sofy will not hesitate to protect the
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀people she loves. tenderhearted, open-minded, optimistic, empathetic, and sympathetic to everyone she comes across; but exudes
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀these traits the most when it comes to friends and family. definitely classified in most people's books as the clingy friend that never
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀stops asking 'ARE YOU OKAY???' dependable and resourceful. doesn't quite find herself humorous but can make someone giggle
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀every once in a while. enthusiastic, hyper and 'smiley' nearly 24/7. mostly a stereotypical 'good girl'. very intelligent and methodical,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀her emotional and situational intelligence trumps everything else. an avid conversationalist once she's comfortable. absolute hopeless
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀romantic. loyal & genuine.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› most-prevalent-trait: her loyalty. a golden thread sown into almost all of her interpersonal relationships.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀negative-traits: being extremely moody. stonewalling her own emotions and thoughts in hopes of not being rejected or abandoned
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀based on her own ideals and ideologies. easily-influenced by others, especially people she deems "stronger" than herself. has a small
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀tendency to manipulate others into getting what she wants. a raging perfectionist with enough self-criticism to feed a village. comes
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀off as immature or 'bratty' to most. unintentionally gives off an entitled 'vibe.' becomes VERY dependent on others when allowed; both
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀emotionally and mentally. too dramatic and erratic for the faint-hearted. has an overwhelming fixation with being good and wanting
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀to be perceived as good. romanticizing people, feelings, thoughts, etc, to avoid issues that might harm her or someone else. stubborn,
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀immature, & far too trusting.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› most-prevalent-trait: blind loyalty.

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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› happy, never-ending smiles; varying in size and brightness. shaking hands with an inability to stop herself from moving. adjectives
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀venture to more child-like descriptions. sometimes tears or the incapacity to focus if the emotion is overwhelming.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› sad, attempts will be made to push through this emotion at first before walls come caving in and she's distraught. tears, lots of
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀them; varying in longevity and volume. usually, a silent crier, holds back tears not because sadness is frowned upon but because
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀ruined makeup is. tries to distract with comfort movies, more often ends up turning the television off and sitting in silence.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› angry, to be written.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› anxious, to be written.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› fear, to be written.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› disgust, to be written.

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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀FADE-IN:
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ACT-IV, PART-I, SCENE-III:

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀" I CRAFTED YOU IN A MADE—UP PLACE WHERE REALITY COULD NEVER HARM YOU.. '
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀AN-AFFILIATION-BLOG————FOR THE LOVED; THE LOST; THE DAMMED; THE GONE.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ⠀⠀LAST UPDATED, JUNE 15, 2022, UNKNOWN TIME.



⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀familiar: ties bound by blood and un-spoken love; stronger with promises of forever ... but blood has never been kind to her.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› mother: [demetria-jamora] a momma's girl through and through. sofia is her mother's self-proclaimed favorite. the only
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀child that visits her vindictive, slightly passive-aggressive and judgmental mother on a bi-weekly basis. although sofia
⠀⠀　⠀⠀　doesn't always agree with her mother, detests her for choosing work over herself + her sisters, and claims to dislike her every
⠀⠀　⠀⠀　time she speaks about her because of the way she treats others——sofia would do just about anything for her.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: strong but, faulty. remarkably one—sided despite sofia's depressive efforts to appease her mother.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› father: the only information sofy has of her father is little disrespectful comments her mother spews every time the woman
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀does something she doesn't like -- and a picture. a half-burnt, blurry, polaroid that she keeps pinned to her fridge and stares
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀at from time to time. despite her constant longing for a father ever since she was a little girl, the brunette resents him with
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀every fiber of her being. at some point in her life, she plans on reaching out to him, asking a few questions about her
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀extended family and why he never bothered to care for her... but not now.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: never existed. although she ponders every once—in—a—while what life could have been like with him.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› sister: [leilani-jamora] sofy's youngest sister and was closest confidant. ever since leilani was born, the pair were nearly
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀inseparable as children up until they were teenagers they shared everything——secrets, food, and even a room for the better
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀part of their lives. but around the time lani turned seventeen, her mother's wickness seemed to boil over. lani was kicked out
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀and sofia, being the person she was, decided to move in with her sister shortly after. for a while, the two's bond was unmatched.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀events in 2020 proved to be .. damaging for the two. an argument over the disappearance of one of sofia's partners' led to
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀harsh words being thrown, mostly on sofia's part in attempts to separate herself from the truth. now the two don't speak.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀sofia misses her and thinks about her an unhealthy amount.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: previously strong, now broken. no longer in contact with her sister but thinks of her often.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› sister: [malka_jacira-jamora] sofy's oldest sister and the source of most of her headaches. the two sisters never seemed
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀to be close, not in the way that leilani and sofia seemed to have a close-knit bound. more often than not, sofy was used as
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀a secondary mother to malka. feeding her, cleaning up after her, making sure she did her homework as well as her own,
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀listening to her issues, watching after her at parties and more importantly, stopping her from falling for terrible men. now that
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀they're older, they don't speak. only seeing each other on special events and holidays.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: weak, has always been that way. has always lacked a bond with her sister but would do anything for her. ]


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀the-lost: to be written.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-bf: [ rico-xavier hernandez ] the pair had been inseparable since elementary school. after slowly developing a crush on
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀each other, it was only a matter a time before the two lovebirds got together. he became her very first love, boyfriend, everything.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀to this day he is still one of her most memorable love interests. regardless of their dance with strong attraction to one another,
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀sofia ended things between them. her reasoning behind doing so was pure and utter terror of the unknown. ri began speaking
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀about their plans for the future; kids, marriage, house, car, career, etc. sofia wasn’t quite sure if she wanted those things at the
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀age of seventeen, so she broke it off.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: mid. she still adores him and appreciates how nicely he treated her. they still talk from time to time.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-bf: [ spencer-harrison ] the second boy sofia dated; her very first "bad influence." the two met through one of sofy's
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀co-workers and spoke to each other for weeks before getting into a relationship. during their short love affair, spence
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀introduced sof' to the 'party scene'. in no time, the woman got wrapped up in the life of drinking and doing drugs every night.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀during the relationship, spencer was always unusually cold, closed off and distant from her -- unless they were getting high
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀or drunk. at some point, sofia felt like she couldn't take it anymore. she confronted him about not giving her what she needed,
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀not only physically. but mentally, romantically and emotionally. after a long-winded argument, the two parted ways and never
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀spoke again.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: broken, dreary, weak. she never speaks about or to him; at one point she even forgotten he existed.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-something (?): [z] subconsciously, this is the root of a lot of sofia's trauma. the two met at one of spencer's house parties.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀the two hit it off immediately but remained friends until sofia and spencer separated. once they broke up, z took it upon himself
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀to 'comfort' sofia while she was healing her broken heart. after downing two bottles of Hennessy in his penthouse, z. convinced
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀a very drunken sofia that he could be the man that she was seeking all along. at first, the girl took it as a joke, but as the night
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀slowly progressed... she saw something in him that she couldn't quite place. and to this day, she still regrets finding some
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀kind of spark in his darkness. their time together started extremely rocky. all his little displays of kindness drifted away and
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀transformed into insults, manipulation, and extortion. dropping all romantic feelings altogether, only using sofia for sex and
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀companionship. the basis of their situation-ship consisted of z only talking to her / interacting with her when he was in calabasas
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀or he needed something (whether it be sex, companionship, a lapdog for house parties, or just needed a place to stay) and sofia
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀would be happy with only that and only that. regardless of his distance, she still fell for him in hopes that he would change for
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀her. that never came. after about six months of this absolute nightmare, z broke it off with sofia. even managing to convince her
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀that she was the reason they were parting ways. for a while, sofia didn't know how to trust others and still has problems opening
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀up about her emotions, curse words, yelling, and the topics of sex, drugs, and alcohol.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: dead and gone. no longer in contact and is grateful for that. if she was capable of hatred, he would be the
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀first on a very short list. thinks of him often, often in disgust or ... curiosity. ]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-bf: [ jordan-de-clerck ] a love she didn't know she needed... for a bit. at first, sofy completely thought jordan was a cold
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀—hearted jerk. she made the assumption based purely on the fact that he seemed dry sometimes and still used periods at
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀the ends of his sentences. but miraculously, the two became close friends, trading little banter back and forth daily and
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀confiding in each other when they needed it the most. on most days, jordan was one of the only reasons for her smile. at the
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀time, sofia was in the process of choosing who she was going to purse romantically. and after a very emotional day, she
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀noticed the only person that was there to hold her hand and calm her down was -- jordan. her saving grace, on most days. after
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀a week or two of flirting and dancing around the subject the two finally decided to make it official and date! before long the pair
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀were planning their wedding, owning dogs, moving to foreign countries, blocking everyone out of their lives and being free.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀but there was a slight problem with that. sofia had never actually met jordan. no dates. no hand-holding. no hugs. nothing. and
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀he was distant and slightly cold like her other ex-boyfriends. and with jay's frequent disappearing acts, sofia's mental health slowly
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀started to deteriorate. she spent two months out of a three, almost-four, relationship -- alone. after many sleepless nights and
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀days spent worried about him, she decided to call it a quits and break up with him. she sent him a long, emotional letter and
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀hasn't spoken to him since.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-bf: [ austin walker ] started off as unlikely friends. to be written.
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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀friends:
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› bella-hadid: [bella, belle, angel, wife #1, baby-love, other half.] word-association: to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› kristiyana-tanaka: [krissy, mean-girl, bubby, sister-wife, wife #2.] word-association: to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› darlene-arlington: [deedee, fairy, baby, blondie, wife #3, pea-to-my-pod, bibble.] word-association: to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written. ]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› rowan-atwood: [rowe, azure, favorite boy.] word-association: to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› aisha-h.: [ash, wife number #4, sunshine.] word-association: to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› lennon-dubois: [blog entry here] word-association: to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› reese-floyd: [buttercup, mr. jupiter, lil v****n, rice, lil moon, etc. ] word-association: to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› alex-turner: [alexander, estrella, alex.] word-association: star clusters, to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› amore-westbrooks: [lovebug, amour,] word-association: unsolicited emoji spams, random confessions of appreciation, burnt
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀dinner, power trips, and ego boosting, bonding over broken relationships, undying love, heartshapes, cheek-kiss-exchanges.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: strong with slight falters. pair have drifted apart off and on, but always find their way back after a
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀couple of months with no—to—little contact.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› zion-eurodyne: [z, nephilim, faeri-boy.] word-association: to be written.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written. ]
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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› jaxson-dempsey: [jax, jaxy, tangerine.] word-association: assorted fruits, broken wine bottles, and wet paper towels, echoing
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀infectious laughter, terrible kik drawings, tangerine trees, 'if you love 'em, don't leave 'em', friends breaking your heart, aphrodite
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀fritillary, the sibling no one asked for but everyone wants.
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀[connection-strength: previously strong, now non-existent. parted ways after two years of friendship, despite this sofia still
　⠀⠀　⠀⠀regularly observes jax from afar. making sure he's okay and cared for regardless of her saying she wants 'nothing' to do with him. ]


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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ⠀⠀WRITTEN-BY ⠀:⠀⠀[ jai, she/her. sapphic. also @hijack ]
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