& one thing only: ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀love. "


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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀FADE-IN:
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ACT-IV, PART-I, SCENE-III:

⠀⠀⠀ ⠀" I CRAFTED YOU IN A MADE—UP PLACE WHERE REALITY COULD NEVER HARM YOU.. '
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀AN-AFFILIATION-BLOG————FOR THE LOVED; THE LOST; THE DAMMED; THE GONE.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ⠀⠀LAST UPDATED, JUNE 15, 2022, UNKNOWN TIME.



⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀familiar: ties bound by blood and un-spoken love; stronger with promises of forever ... but blood has never been kind to her.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› mother: [demetria-jamora] a momma's girl through and through. sofia is her mother's self-proclaimed favorite. the only
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀child that visits her vindictive, slightly passive-aggressive and judgmental mother on a bi-weekly basis. although sofia
⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ doesn't always agree with her mother, detests her for choosing work over herself + her sisters, and claims to dislike her every
⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ time she speaks about her because of the way she treats others——sofia would do just about anything for her.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: strong but, faulty. remarkably one—sided despite sofia's depressive efforts to appease her mother.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› father: the only information sofy has of her father is little disrespectful comments her mother spews every time the woman
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀does something she doesn't like -- and a picture. a half-burnt, blurry, polaroid that she keeps pinned to her fridge and stares
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀at from time to time. despite her constant longing for a father ever since she was a little girl, the brunette resents him with
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀every fiber of her being. at some point in her life, she plans on reaching out to him, asking a few questions about her
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀extended family and why he never bothered to care for her... but not now.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: never existed. although she ponders every once—in—a—while what life could have been like with him.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› sister: [leilani-jamora] sofy's youngest sister and was closest confidant. ever since leilani was born, the pair were nearly
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀inseparable as children up until they were teenagers they shared everything——secrets, food, and even a room for the better
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀part of their lives. but around the time lani turned seventeen, her mother's wickness seemed to boil over. lani was kicked out
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀and sofia, being the person she was, decided to move in with her sister shortly after. for a while, the two's bond was unmatched.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀events in 2020 proved to be .. damaging for the two. an argument over the disappearance of one of sofia's partners' led to
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀harsh words being thrown, mostly on sofia's part in attempts to separate herself from the truth. now the two don't speak.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀sofia misses her and thinks about her an unhealthy amount.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: previously strong, now broken. no longer in contact with her sister but thinks of her often.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› sister: [malka_jacira-jamora] sofy's oldest sister and the source of most of her headaches. the two sisters never seemed
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀to be close, not in the way that leilani and sofia seemed to have a close-knit bound. more often than not, sofy was used as
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀a secondary mother to malka. feeding her, cleaning up after her, making sure she did her homework as well as her own,
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀listening to her issues, watching after her at parties and more importantly, stopping her from falling for terrible men. now that
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀they're older, they don't speak. only seeing each other on special events and holidays.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: weak, has always been that way. has always lacked a bond with her sister but would do anything for her. ]


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀the-lost: to be written.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-bf: [ rico-xavier hernandez ] the pair had been inseparable since elementary school. after slowly developing a crush on
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀each other, it was only a matter a time before the two lovebirds got together. he became her very first love, boyfriend, everything.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀to this day he is still one of her most memorable love interests. regardless of their dance with strong attraction to one another,
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀sofia ended things between them. her reasoning behind doing so was pure and utter terror of the unknown. ri began speaking
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀about their plans for the future; kids, marriage, house, car, career, etc. sofia wasn’t quite sure if she wanted those things at the
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀age of seventeen, so she broke it off.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: mid. she still adores him and appreciates how nicely he treated her. they still talk from time to time.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-bf: [ spencer-harrison ] the second boy sofia dated; her very first "bad influence." the two met through one of sofy's
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀co-workers and spoke to each other for weeks before getting into a relationship. during their short love affair, spence
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀introduced sof' to the 'party scene'. in no time, the woman got wrapped up in the life of drinking and doing drugs every night.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀during the relationship, spencer was always unusually cold, closed off and distant from her -- unless they were getting high
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀or drunk. at some point, sofia felt like she couldn't take it anymore. she confronted him about not giving her what she needed,
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀not only physically. but mentally, romantically and emotionally. after a long-winded argument, the two parted ways and never
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀spoke again.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: broken, dreary, weak. she never speaks about or to him; at one point she even forgotten he existed.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-something (?): [z] subconsciously, this is the root of a lot of sofia's trauma. the two met at one of spencer's house parties.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀the two hit it off immediately but remained friends until sofia and spencer separated. once they broke up, z took it upon himself
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀to 'comfort' sofia while she was healing her broken heart. after downing two bottles of Hennessy in his penthouse, z. convinced
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀a very drunken sofia that he could be the man that she was seeking all along. at first, the girl took it as a joke, but as the night
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀slowly progressed... she saw something in him that she couldn't quite place. and to this day, she still regrets finding some
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀kind of spark in his darkness. their time together started extremely rocky. all his little displays of kindness drifted away and
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀transformed into insults, manipulation, and extortion. dropping all romantic feelings altogether, only using sofia for sex and
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀companionship. the basis of their situation-ship consisted of z only talking to her / interacting with her when he was in calabasas
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀or he needed something (whether it be sex, companionship, a lapdog for house parties, or just needed a place to stay) and sofia
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀would be happy with only that and only that. regardless of his distance, she still fell for him in hopes that he would change for
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀her. that never came. after about six months of this absolute nightmare, z broke it off with sofia. even managing to convince her
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀that she was the reason they were parting ways. for a while, sofia didn't know how to trust others and still has problems opening
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀up about her emotions, curse words, yelling, and the topics of sex, drugs, and alcohol.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: dead and gone. no longer in contact and is grateful for that. if she was capable of hatred, he would be the
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀first on a very short list. thinks of him often, often in disgust or ... curiosity. ]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-bf: [ jordan-de-clerck ] a love she didn't know she needed... for a bit. at first, sofy completely thought jordan was a cold
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀—hearted jerk. she made the assumption based purely on the fact that he seemed dry sometimes and still used periods at
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀the ends of his sentences. but miraculously, the two became close friends, trading little banter back and forth daily and
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀confiding in each other when they needed it the most. on most days, jordan was one of the only reasons for her smile. at the
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀time, sofia was in the process of choosing who she was going to purse romantically. and after a very emotional day, she
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀noticed the only person that was there to hold her hand and calm her down was -- jordan. her saving grace, on most days. after
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀a week or two of flirting and dancing around the subject the two finally decided to make it official and date! before long the pair
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀were planning their wedding, owning dogs, moving to foreign countries, blocking everyone out of their lives and being free.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀but there was a slight problem with that. sofia had never actually met jordan. no dates. no hand-holding. no hugs. nothing. and
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀he was distant and slightly cold like her other ex-boyfriends. and with jay's frequent disappearing acts, sofia's mental health slowly
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀started to deteriorate. she spent two months out of a three, almost-four, relationship -- alone. after many sleepless nights and
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀days spent worried about him, she decided to call it a quits and break up with him. she sent him a long, emotional letter and
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀hasn't spoken to him since.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ex-bf: [ austin walker ] started off as unlikely friends. to be written.
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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀friends:
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› bella-hadid: [bella, belle, angel, wife #1, baby-love, other half.] word-association: to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› kristiyana-tanaka: [krissy, mean-girl, bubby, sister-wife, wife #2.] word-association: to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› darlene-arlington: [deedee, fairy, baby, blondie, wife #3, pea-to-my-pod, bibble.] word-association: to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written. ]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› rowan-atwood: [rowe, azure, favorite boy.] word-association: to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› aisha-h.: [ash, wife number #4, sunshine.] word-association: to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› lennon-dubois: [blog entry here] word-association: to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› reese-floyd: [buttercup, mr. jupiter, lil v****n, rice, lil moon, etc. ] word-association: to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› alex-turner: [alexander, estrella, alex.] word-association: star clusters, to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› amore-westbrooks: [lovebug, amour,] word-association: unsolicited emoji spams, random confessions of appreciation, burnt
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀dinner, power trips, and ego boosting, bonding over broken relationships, undying love, heartshapes, cheek-kiss-exchanges.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: strong with slight falters. pair have drifted apart off and on, but always find their way back after a
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀couple of months with no—to—little contact.]
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› zion-eurodyne: [z, nephilim, faeri-boy.] word-association: to be written.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: to be written. ]
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⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀broken: an arrangement of connections that were previously important. now, untethered, but still hold enough weight to break
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀and mangle a golden heart.
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› jaxson-dempsey: [jax, jaxy, tangerine.] word-association: assorted fruits, broken wine bottles, and wet paper towels, echoing
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀infectious laughter, terrible kik drawings, tangerine trees, 'if you love 'em, don't leave 'em', friends breaking your heart, aphrodite
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀fritillary, the sibling no one asked for but everyone wants.
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀[connection-strength: previously strong, now non-existent. parted ways after two years of friendship, despite this sofia still
 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀regularly observes jax from afar. making sure he's okay and cared for regardless of her saying she wants 'nothing' to do with him. ]


⠀⠀⠀ ⠀FADE-OUT:
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀› ⠀⠀WRITTEN-BY ⠀:⠀⠀[ jai, she/her. sapphic. also @hijack ]
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