Freedom in forgiving yourself

I'm posting this because I need this off my chest and I know no one will look here. I had a good break through yesterday as I was mindlessly working. The time and quiet was what I really needed. Letting go is what needed to happen. Holding on to what I lost was like trying to use a rose bush to try and pull myself to the surface. The harder I held on the more it hurt, the more I hurt myself. Letting go was the awmser I just refused to accept it as such. I am truly happy I got to experience such love and kindness, but it was time to just let it go. I have and it's time to step forward woth my life.