ꜱᴡɪɴɢɪɴɢ ʟᴇɢꜱ

8:16 AM

Did waking up even happen? Please enlighten me, I'd like to know, because I don't remember it at all. I just know last night I slept better than I had the night before. The night before was a hard one for me now looking back on it, lying awake and thinking about what I've done and things to message people who don't care anymore. I tossed and turned and my vision seemed wild and streaked. But last night I slept soundly, I slept happily with Miles.

Aside from that, I feel ill, I feel like I want to slam the side of my head into the table and tumble off the chair. I guess you really do need sleep sometimes eh... I assume even though I feel sick to hell, I won't listen to logic anyway.
I feel so terribly ill and I need to stop stretching my arms above my head, it makes them feel sorely tired.
I overheard someone's conversation and it was damn annoying, dense ig. It pissed me off a bit but I can't afford to care much for it to ruin my day.
I want to throw up - if you couldn't tell already.

Not a fan of mornings.

9:50 AM

What did I do for that hour? I can't remember, I just know my face feels horrible.
My lips feel dry no matter how much I lick them, every time I run my fingertips across my face I feel oncoming acne or acne that's already there, my skin feels dry even if it's not.
I need to stop licking and nibbling my lips before they chap, there's a line on my lips that tastes like blood already
But I've stopped stretching my arms
I put my hand in front of myself and my fingertips keep moving about all oddly
I feel dirty, as soon as I get home I'm taking a shower, and I want my hair out of my face

10:11 AM

I want to sleep in the corner of the bathroom

11:50 AM

I can't wait to see Miles, I'm not toppling over myself practically anymore though so that's a good thing innit
I don't feel too sick to eat unlike yesterday so that's also good, I think my want to throw up disappears faster now. But my heart rate is pounding and my hand trembles every now and then.
I want a cig though... wonder if I could have a quick one in a few
God I don't wanna bother Mi with this, it's just me being unhealthy, I hope it's not obvious. Every time I get home I try to be subtle about it, it's not that big'a deal.

2:50 PM

Well I don't feel as sh*t! I mean my arms are kinda post-given out, not completely slacking at all, but a little tired. My shoulders kind of hurt though, at least I'm not constantly feeling my face anymore though, and I don't want to sleep in the bathroom or throw up
I haven't taken a nap once today, so that's good, as I'm not supposed to (though I should)

3:34 PM

Currently I feel alright, way better than what the mornings got to serve me. The mornings are always where I'm not at my best but currently I don't think I'm at my best either, it just is the best compared to this morning. I think this is my final thought of the day even though the day ends a little later than now, but I think I feel my best I can.