Diary Entry

School was hard and I doubled down. I had nothing going on and at the time, that was my way to forget, to focus. I realize that in a lot of ways it was a level of avoidance but it got me through a lot. The psychologist helped me me more grounded and realistic. I am just enjoying everything I do.

I am trying to build quality friendships, like I had with Steve. Something based on something real. Solid relationships that no matter what, even if the other has to leave for a while, that relationship still is just as important when they return.

I made a mistake the other night at some point drinking too much. However, lesson's learned and maybe chaos will create a friendship. Every mistake, every hard time leads to lessons and moments of growth. I want to be more than I ever thought I could be. Everyday my goal is to learn one new thing and forgive myself of my short comings. I have my days that are tough.

Grow.
We will never be fully who we are meant to be. There is always room to grow, learn and be better.