Drowning.


After spending some time with Song and TiHao, he returns to Kori's home and heads to his bedroom, to take a nap. He counted to sleep a couple of hours and wake up with a less painful headache, so that he would be able to take care of ShiHao's matter that same evening. He even told to TiHao that he'd do it that in some hours, since he was very positive that he'd get better after resting.

The nap, though, lasts much longer than he had calculated. He sleeps the whole rest of the afternoon and all night, waking up only the next morning.
All of his memories are back and they mix up with all the new ones he made while living with amnesia. Now he really is back to his usual self and he remembers everything that happened while he wasn't in his right mind too.

What he feels, beyond anything else, is a sense to absolute terror. It's so intense it triggers a very strong panic attack, the worst he has had in his whole life, despite he always suffered from panic disorder.

He phones YiXing, since he is the first person coming to his mind. He thinks Kori might be busy with work and wouldn't be able to answer it. "Dowajuseyo, dowajuseyo, jebal!!"

(...) When YiXing shuts the call, he feels even more scared and starts to send the same vocal message to all the WhatsApp groups he is into.
"Dowajuseyo, dowajuseyo, jebal!!" he sobs loudly while crying desperately, even in the message.
Heart this
1 | Jun 1st 2020 06:37
LaNii
LaNii "That kind of behaviour doesn't help people become better..." he says in a low tone. She really had to end up surrounded by the worst kind of subjects!!
| I think I know why you lied. | Well, he assumes it was for his brother's sake, but he also thinks it could have endangered himself very bad.
| I can't get close to him, I can't... | Even if they'd manage to drag him, he wouldn't be able to operate. That's the main problem.
0
DontCry
DontCry "I know it doesn't. That's why I didn't get better till now. I have no intention to be better towards him."

| Forget it, treat him like the shit he has been before.
If you can't, another doctor can? It is fine if we return to the first option too. | But with ShiHao having to live with hearing aids.
0
LaNii
LaNii "That can be counterproductive, though... you two hating each other with your child in-between..." he says in a low tone. He worries for Kun.
This time he takes a while to reply. | I would like we could still be friends... | He likes to be friend with TiHao, he also liked to train with him on the roof and hang out together.
0
DontCry
DontCry "Ye...you are right but I'd be more reassured if Kun didn't approach him at all. Instead, he asks to go to him sometimes or asks when he is coming." She mutters.

TiHao waits, sat on the couch with his phone in hand. | I would like it too... you were my first friend in years. | The first real friend in his life, considering everything.
0
LaNii
LaNii "He wants to put an effort to be a good abeoji, though... even if you don't like him, he can do good for Kun..." And truly, he knows a thing or two about shitty parents.
| Then... let's be... I'll find a way... | To deal with ShiHao, he means.
1