This whole covid-19 stuff sucks dudn't it Teddi??

I don’t know how else to start this other than just saying I’ve been thinking about how lucky I am, just to get to the f***in’ point. As with near everything else I’m definitely overthinking, but I thought this’d be interesting to look back on and whatnot…And I thought of writing this while I was in that weird sleep-wake state, who knows if there’s any actual point in f***in writing this! Pfpf. In short—existence has been f***in’ weird lately, if you couldn’t tell! Haha. Man…I guess I’ve just been thinking about how nice it is that I’m essentially stuck with these two. Some people are all locked inside alone, but for some reason I’ve got the privilege of bein’ trapped with my two favorite people basically, lol. I don’t know, just feels unfair. Don’t know why fate decided I deserve it of all people, meanwhile Sean and Mike numero uno y dos are all cooped up with nothing else to do but shoot their loads into the ceiling. I’ve been trying to check up on ‘em, I oughta check in again later today… I don’t know, even though in the end us three haven’t got much left to do either, I really just can’t shake the thought of how lucky I am man… Jesus f***ing Christ if I were by myself I’d be losing my mind. Bein’ an alcoholic don’t help much either do it?! LOL. While I can say not being able to go out leaves Layne and I more space to indulge, at the same time it’s got me keeping more of an eye on him, and I feel the same probably goes the other way around… Not to mention the fact I doubt either of us want Reid stuck in a crackhouse, haha. I guess we’ve got a third little crazy eye on both of us, especially me… Maybe I shouldn’t roll over in my head about how much I don’t deserve this, cause when it comes down to it, those two sure as hell f***in’ do. Again, little eyes all on each other I think… Layne’s been coming outta his room more I’m noticing, that’s real nice. I don’t even think he notices, I know it’s pure boredom and I’m just the last option of torture to get him out of it! Haha. Whatever it takes y’know. And of course I love seeing him and Reid get along too… It’s cute, even though I swear I barely hear any words from em. It’s like there’s 5 cats in this house instead of 3, lol. Those two felines on ugly little human legs for sure deserve all the company… To be honest I don’t wanna think about how Reid would be doing if he were trapped in that depressing ass apartment by himself, even without all this he’s mentioned how uneasy it’s got him… I’m very grateful I’ve nabbed him.
Oh world how you turn my brain over and over like the little hunk of meat it is! Pff.