⠄⠄⠄ i'm going home

tw | family issues, murder, mentions of cannibalism, and abusive relationships.
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﹙ backstory. ﹚

hanbin was the oldest son of sung jaemin, a serial killer who preyed on young boys. he witnessed and served as an accomplice to his father's crimes, helping get rid of the victims's bodies by "honoring" every bit of them. the police managed to track his father, and the man tried killing the entire family as a result. when hanbin turned sixteen, he nearly became his father's victim and saw the man be shot to death.

obviously, the case hit the news, and his life was turned upside down.

traumatized by these events, hanbin, his mother, and his sister moved to seoul hoping to start over. despite repressing his memories, hanbin's association with his father's crimes cast a long shadow over his life... he avoided getting close to people, who seemed only interested in his dark past and spent months in therapy trying to get better.

he became a voice actor at the age of seventeen, by appearing in the hit animated movie mystery manor. there, he began focusing on his career, developing his portfolio, and getting new roles that shot his name into popularity. while nowhere near an a-lister, hanbin is fairly recognized in the voice acting industry.

at eighteen, he met zhang hao and they hit it off fairly well. zhang hao was everything hanbin looked for in a person – understanding, gentle, and smart. the two of them seemed to be soulmates and stayed together in a weird, on-and-off relationship for five years, breaking up in february 2024. however, hao's jealousy brought a bitter end to their relationship. as, in the months leading up to the breakup, he acted like he resented hanbin for working so hard and took his anger out whenever hanbin was within arm's reach.

right now, hanbin prefers to keep people close, but not too close. he's focused on his career and moving on from his traumas. however, every time he closes his eyes, he's haunted by the images of his father killing boys who looked so much like him.

on march 30th, hanbin murdered his ex-boyfriend after an argument. he was helped by wonbin to dispose of the body, and he ate zhang hao's hear as the first steps of him moving on.

﹙ filmography. ﹚

– mystery manor (2018)
– virtual love (2018)
– realm of imagination (2018-2019)
– galactic guardians: a space adventure (2019-2021)
– mayhem (2020)
– mystery manor 2 (2020)
– misfit! (2020)
– intergalactic extravaganza (2021-2023)
– mystery manor: the animated series (2022-)

﹙ playlist. ﹚

one – sugar water by flowerface

my boy's got a sharp twist, no, he's wicked in the heart
feeds me sugar water just to keep me alive
saw him in my dreams again, he's wiping down the fingerprints
press so hard I float up to the sky

hanging 'round like a puppy 'til you let me in
coming home with a black eye, begging for you (ah, ah)
you like to treat me like a child, but that's alright (ah, ah)
i kinda like it when you talk the way you do

two – would you love me now? by joshua bassett

if i showed up at your doorstep
would you turn me away? oh
or would you care to
see a stranger whose eyes are still the same? oh
take me or leave me i'm going home
but i'd rather be going your way so
would you love me now?
take me back to when we were young again, darling
would you love me now?
after everything would you let me in and love me now?

three – ruth by flower face

i'm standing in your house again and everything looks so small
everything is in its place like you never left at all
the world's gone dim without you and i don't know what to do
the only sacred part of me is everything from you

four – stranger by olivia rodrigo

'cause i was half myself without you and now i feel so complete
and i can't even remember what made me lose all that sleep
i criеd a million rivers for you, but that's over now
you're just a strangеr i know everything about, ooh, ooh
you're just a stranger i know everything about

five – stick season by noah kahan

as you promised me that i was more than all the miles combined
you must have had yourself a change of heart like
halfway through the drive
because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign
kept on drivin' straight and left our future to the right
now i am stuck between my anger and the blame that i can't face
and memories are somethin' even smoking weed does not replace
and i am terrified of weather 'cause i see you when it rains
doc told me to travel, but there's covid on the planes

six – house on the ocean by layne elizabeth

here on my desk there's a photo
we took it in march in your car
sometimes i look down and i wonder
where those two true lovers are?

seven – oh no! by marina

one track mind, one track heart
if i fail, i'll fall apart
maybe it is all a test
'cause, i feel like i'm the worst
so i always act like i'm the best

eight – lowkey by niki

i don't gotta know if you're taken
i'll just let ya know bedroom's vacant
no one's gotta know, just us and the moon 'til the sun starts wakin'
up's the only direction i see
as long as we keep this
low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low-key

nine – half a heart by ellise

apple of your eye, 'til you took a bite
and realized i was rotten, now it makes you nauseous
gave you everything i had
somehow i'm the bad guy for gettin' ruined
you knew that
i've got half a heart
the rest of it's sitting in the graveyard
buried by thе lovers who were rеally undertakers
left me with nothin' but scars
and maybe if you gave me part of yours
i'd feel a little better, i could love you for a lifetime
but we'd be back at the start
either way, it's half a heart

ten – crush by ethel cain

his daddy's on death row, but he'll say it with his chest, though
his friends move dope, he hasn't tried coke
but he's always had a problem saying no

eleven – strangers by ethel cain

in your basement, i grow cold
thinking back to what i was always told
"don't talk to strangers or you might fall in love"

freezer bride, your sweet divine
you devour like smoked bovine hide
how funny, i never considered myself tough