frantic tea blog

i'm sitting here at 10:30 at night....

wondering what i did to deserve these cards
bad love life
bad brain problems
and now fear of leaving home without any knowledge on how to do anything or if i'll ever see my friends again.
is there a rewind button to press so i can go back to being a kid? because ill gladly press it if i never have to deal with puberty and adulting ever again.
ill just watch cartoons all day and drink hot chocolate with a stuffie
i don't even need a caregiver, ill be fine on my own. i just want to be okay for once in my life and not be stressed so much about my future because right now i have no idea what i'm evening doing with my life an feeling like breaking down at the very thought of going to college all by myself and having to deal with interacting with new people. like what if i don't find my own people or i don't actually get a useful degree and i end up homeless with no job?! or worse what if i'm stuck doing something i hate?!? i don't want this anymore. i'm sorry i wanted to grow up so much. i should of listened to everyone when they told me its not all its cracked up to be. someone lease just hold me and tell me i'm overreacting because i am not okay right now and i don't want to grow up anymore.