tw for mentions of: self harm, obsessive behavior, substance abuse

< GENERAL INFORMATION ! >

. . . . .

&.. full name (?) park jisung
... nicknames (?) jiji, sungie
... birthdate / age (?) february fifth, two thousand two / twenty-two
… gender / sex (?) male (he/him/his)
... birthplace / current location (?) seoul, south korea / seoul, south kora
... nationality / languages (?) korean / korean, english,
… religion (?) nihilist
… occupation / income (?) baker / he can live comfortable with money to spare
… current living situation (?) lives alone in an apartment


< PHYSICAL ! >

. . . .
&.. face claim: park jisung
… eye color (?) brown
… hair color (?) black
… height (?) 5 feet, 11 inches
… weight (?) 61 kg / 134 lbs
… piercings / tattoos (?) none / none
… scars (?) he has a large scar on his thigh from a self inflicted wound same with
the stab wounds on his sides.


< MENTAL ! >

. . . .
&.. general state (?) jisung is typically in a very bad state of mind, especially if
he has no one to obsess over and focus all his attention on. in that case, he feels
empty and like he has no purpose, often leading him to act recklessly and try to
fill the void with substances.
… disorders (?) antisocial personality disorder, bipolar disorder, major depressive
disorder, generalized anxiety disorder.
… symptoms (?) exploit, manipulating or violating the rights of others, lack concern,
regret or remorse about other people's distress, behave irresponsibly and show disregard
for normal social behavior, have difficulty sustaining long-term relationships, unable to
control his anger, lack of guilt, not learning from his mistakes, repeatedly breaking the
law, racing thoughts, talking very quickly, hearing voices that other people can’t hear,
being more irritable than normal, feeling much better about yourself than usual, being
easily distracted, not being able to sleep, lasting sad, anxious or “empty” mood, loss
of interest in almost all activities, appetite and weight changes, decreased energy, trouble
making decisions, trouble falling or staying asleep, trembling, tense muscles, headaches,
trouble breathing, nausea, lightheadedness, being easily startled, unable to relax.
… coping mechanisms: killing, self-harm, drugs, alcohol
… currently: unmedicated / not in therapy
… phobias: tba
… addictions (?) drinking, cocaine
… eating disorders (?) none
... traumas (?) child neglect, abuse, abandonment


< FAMILY AND RELATIONSHIPS ! >

. . . . . .
&.. parents (?) mr & mrs park
… siblings (?) older brother
… children (?) n/a
… relationship with family (?) tba

… obsession/s (?) haechan ( @private / romantic ), angelique ( @celestial /
not romantic ), aria ( @outro / not romantic )
… relationship status (?) single
… significant other (?)
… sexuality (?) unlabeled
… miscellaneous (?) monogamous
… past relationships (?) zhong chenle (dead),
.... love interests (?) n/a
… pets (?) none


< PERSONALITY ! >

. . . .
&.. education (?) high school graduate. has not furthered his education.
… intelligence (?) jisung is fairly intelligent. He is not the most book-smart, but he
is very street-smart, having learned a lot thanks to the walks he goes on late at
night.
… self-confidence (?) he lets whoever his current/most important obsession is
determine his worth. without that, he has no form of self-confidence.
… what upsets him (?) tba
… first impressions (?) hyper or annoying
… rational / emotional (?) emotional
… introvert / extrovert (?) extrovert
… positive characteristics (?) tba
… negative characteristics (?) tba
… strengths (?) tba
… weaknesses (?) tba


< HABITS ! >

. . . . .
&.. physical (?) tba

… verbal (?) tba

< LIKES ! >


&.. likes (?) tba

… dislikes (?) tba

< FAVORITES ! >

. . .
&.. movie (?) the chronicles of narnia / house of 1000 corpses
… animal (?) foxes
… tv show (?) yellowjackets
… food (?) ramen
… song (?) spiracle - flower face
… holiday (?) halloween
… number (?) twelve
… person (?)

( stolen from @lightbug o3o )

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　< CONNECTIONS ! >


... KIM YEONHWA / considers them family | @fade

—　yeonhwa is a special person in jisung's life. he doesn't know how to explain it, but something about them makes him feel safe. he knows they are someone he can rely on despite always feeling like a bit of a burden when he has to ask yeonhwa for advice or help with something. jisung never feels afraid to be who he truly is in front of them, though he usually is still under his happy, hyper facade because it feels so natural when yeonhwa is around. it's safe to say they are the closest thing to a true friend as well as a parental figure he has ever had.

　　　　　　tba

... LEE DONGHYUCK / OBSESSION, LOVE INTEREST | @private

—　tba

　　　　　　tba

... ARIA ESPOSITO / CHILDHOOD FRIEND | @outro

—　tba

　　　　　　tba

... ANGELIQUE EVERHEART / FRIEND | @celestial

—　tba

　　　　　　tba

... THALIA RUSSO / FRIEND | @eclipse

—　tba

　　　　　　tba

< QUOTES ! >
- quotes i associate with jisung -

"　i want to fill my mouth with your name. i want to eat
you whole.　"

. . . . .

"　i want to bite, i want to chew, i will eat you up.　"

. . . . .

"　i still don't know how to love someone without
swallowing them whole　"

. . . . .

"　i beg you, eat me up. want me down to my marrow. 　"
. . . . .

"　if i told you about the darkness inside ofme, would
you still look at me like i'm the sun?　"

. . . . .

"　i love you like a rotten dog. i love you like my
canines are falling out of my gums. like a monster, like
a beast, like something not worth loving back.　"

. . . . .

"　the moral of the story is, i will gut you if i need to. i
will carve my way out with only my teeth.　"

. . . . .

"　a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort　"

.. . . . .

"　i knew exactly how it was going to end, yet it still hurt.
because a part of me, even if small, wanted to believe
that things might go different this time. 　"

. . . . .

"　wanting to feel wanted is the loneliest feeling every. 　"

. . . . .

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NOW PLAYING : JISUNG ! >

. . . fifty-three tracks . . . 03:11:00 . . .



... SPIRACLE - FLOWER FACE | 3:00

... THE HORROR OF OUR LOVE - LUDO | 4:28

... SICK OBSESSION - LANDON TEWERS | 3:40

... I NEVER LOVED MYSELF LIKE I LOVED YOU - DEAD POET SOCIETY | 4:22

... BACK TO YOU ( ALTERNATE VERSION ) - FLOWER FACE | 3:19

... PICTURE IN MY POCKET - MISSIO | 5:27

... FLOWERS OF FLESH AND BLOOD - NICOLE DOLLANGANGER | 2:07

... MONSTERS ( INSIDE OF US ) - MISSIO | 4:31

... TELL ME WHEN IT HURTS - FLOWER FACE | 4:47

... SOMEDAY I WILL LOSE YOU - MAT KEREKES | 4:10

... WILT - HOLDING ABSENCE | 6:38

... MANIAC - PHOEBE GREEN | 3:31

... TO PLAY HIDE AND SEEK WITH JEALOUSY - FAMOUS LAST WORDS | 3:34

... NO ORDINARY LOVE - MEMPHIS MAY FIRE | 3:56

... UNTIL IT DOESN'T HURT - MOTHER MOTHER | 2:55

... FAILURE TO COMPLY - MISSIO | 3:38

... WHAT HAVE YOU BECOME? - MNQN | 4:32

... BEAUTIFUL CRIME - TAMER | 4:32

... WHAT IF IT DOESN'T END WELL - CHLOE MORIONDO | 3:42

... HIS HANDS - BLEGH | 5:32

... CORNFLOWER BLUE - FLOWER FACE | 3:09

... MIRACLE - BAD OMENS | 3:45

... SMOTHER - DAUGHTER | 4:01

...STALKER'SS TANGO - AUTOHEART | 2:55

... CIGARETTES & FEELINGS - THE HAUNT | 3:32

... UNTIL I LEAVE - ZEPH | 1:50

...I'M SORRY FOR WASTING YOUR TIME - ZEPH | 3:00

... NOT STRONG ENOUGH - BOYGENIUS | 3:55

... VIOLET! - WATERPARKS | 2:47

... HURT ME - SURIEL HESS | 3:03

... GOD COMPLEX - VIOLENT VIRA | 2:59

... YANDERE - LEA COTA | 3:09

... BEG - LEA COTA | 4:14

... HALF A HEART - ELLISE | 3:04

... DESIRE - PALAYE ROYALE | 2:59

... HEARTSTRINGS - BABY JANE | 2:42

... LITTLE LIKE HELL - THE HAUNT | 3:07

... WISH YOU STAYED - THE HAUNT | 3:12

... HIT ME RIGHT - JOHNNY GOTH | 2:48

... THE TOWER - DRAMA MOTH | 4:30

... PERSONA NON GRATA - WHALE BONES | 4:20

... FLEETING LOVE - ROYAL SUGAR | 3:24

... KILLER - ELLISE | 2:22

... MASOCHIST - ELLISE | 2:23

... VALENTINE - MÅNESKIN | 2:23

... WORLDS END - PALAYE ROYALE | 3:00

... FATAL ATTRACTION - REED WONDER | 3:23

... SWEET OBLIVION - GRIFFIN BENTON | 4:08

... LITTLE JARS OF BLOOD - BABY BUGS | 2:55

... TEDDY BEAR SYNDROME - BABY BUGS | 2:32

... HE LOVES ME ( HE LOVES ME NOT ) - BABY BUGS | 3:51

... MY LOVE IS SICK - MADDS BUCKLEY | 4:17

updated : 4.7.24
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this blog will keep track of every time
jisung wants to hurt someone else, and
/or himself.

< 2024년 4월 29일 / 12:36오후 ! >

jisung got an overwhelming feeling of worthlessness.
he wants to hurt himself.