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.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

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full name: adeline mae carter
nicknames: addie
date of birth: 18 may, 2001
height: 5’6
sexuality: bisexual, no lean
current residence: wherever she decides to go
occupation: occasional modeling gigs

‎ ‏‏‎ ‎ ‏‏‎ ‎ ‏‏‎ ‎ ‏‏‎ ↓ ‎ ‏‏‎ PERSONALITY

likes: reading, music, being alone, flowers, jokes, bedtime stories, legos, sleeping in movie theaters, interesting questions, eye contact, forehead kisses, bread

dislikes: loud noises, people who brag, huge egos, mornings, trains, liars, flashing lights, insects, indirect insults, raw fish

phobias: insects, close friends leaving, high places

general attitude: very kind and welcoming, always has a small craving to be close to everyone, scared her past will come back to haunt her

general sociability: introverted, scared to make the first approach but will open up like a book in ten minutes


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illnesses: depression, anxiety, suffers from frequent migraines

allergies: bees

addictions: opioids (currently in recovery)


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CHILDHOOD: adeline lived a pretty normal childhood. she was homeschooled by private teachers and spent most of her time reading books and day dreaming. her parents were always on her about her grades so she didn’t get much time to hang out with other kids. her parents kept a close eye on her to make sure she stayed perfect. adeline very badly wanted to make her parents proud at this stage of her life, so she willingly obeyed and took in every ounce of praise. she developed a need to people please, feeling as if she had no other purpose but to make others proud of her.

TEEN YEARS: adeline hit a rebel phase after meeting a group of people, in their young 20s, in a park when she was sixteen. she started hanging out with them, intrigued by their liveliness and they took her to parties, where she would drink uncontrollably, causing her to have incredulous migraines from the hangovers. during this stage, her relationship with her parents began to falter, but her parents wrote it off as her just being a teenager. they had no idea what she had been doing, and how she was ruining herself for the sake of rebelling. to help with the hangovers, adeline began to pick up on a habit of taking painkillers to help with the headaches. when the typical painkillers stopped working for her, she branched off to experiment with other opioids to stop the pain, where she found a new love of getting high off pills.

ADULT YEARS: after her parents found out about her addiction, adeline had a fallout with her parents at the age of nineteen and moved out of her parents home and into her own apartment, making money by doing small modeling gigs for swimwear and wedding dresses. she cut off almost everyone, besides Lucas, who of which was her neighbor. the pair quickly grew close and they did everything together. he helped her through her addiction and supported her the best he could. adeline was sure she was in love with him, having never loved before, she gave him everything. she never showed her body to anybody before, but she let him see her in the vulnerable state, she let him paint her, touch her, and be with her. she confessed her feelings for him then, and he made it clear that he did not love her the way she wanted him to. after the rejection, adeline cut him out and found comfort in her addiction by herself.

THE YEAR SHE DISAPPEARED: a month before adeline disappeared, she was happy, truly happy. she had gotten over her heartbreak from lucas and had found love and comfort in her boyfriend, adrian. she wanted a life with him, so she vowed to get clean with him. however, an addict is an addict. adeline had a hard time stopping herself from taking opioids, they had a huge grip on her and she knew that she wouldn’t be able quit. her relationship with adrian grew rocky, and so she began to shut him out. she would hardly speak to him, and instead spend her days high and alone, where depression had finally taken ahold of her. the day she disappeared, she didn’t know she was going to. she had taken a flight to california to reach out to her parents, figuring they would be the only people to knock sense into her. although they were hesitant to see her when she arrived, they had agreed to take her in for the night. adeline knew she was a lost cause after seeing their hesitation, and that night, decided to end things for herself by overdosing on a bottle of her father’s valium. luckily for her, her parents found her in time to rush her to the hospital.
adeline stayed in the hospital for a month, not having any contact to any of her friends or her boyfriend. she was closely monitored by nurses and psychiatrists, and was forced to speak to a therapist about what led her to where she was. she was put into program after program, and multiple different rehabs to find the best treatment for her. she got sober, with her parents help, and agreed to let them have say over her life decisions until they felt she could make reasonable and healthy decisions for herself. with the agreement of keeping in contact with her parents and giving them every life update she has, she was given freedom and LITTLE trust a few months later, where she found an apartment in her hometown and made her way back into the world. Adeline is better than before, being sober for almost a year, but she still battles with depression, intense anxiety and cravings. keeping most of it to herself, her goal is to finally try to be happy and better for the people she loves.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
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TO LOVE



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@r0tten ☾ ; loverboy and best friend ! i depend on him like my lungs depend on air

@serenade ☾ a perfect angel ! i have huge heart eyes for her

@meadow ☾ ; the sweetest baby ! she makes me soft , would kill for her

@fiction ☾ ; my boyfriend’s boyfriend ! we are blood bonded circus freaks together

@highway ☾ ; just like a golden retriever ! weirdly intimidated by how much he knows
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TO GROW


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‏‏‎ ‎ ‎ ‏‏‎ ‎ ‏‏‎ ‎ ‏‏‎ ‎ ‏‏‎ ‎.·:*¨ ✘ a love letter of sorts ! ✘ ¨*:·.

being able to love and be loved is like finding out where you are meant to be. it is exciting and exhilarating. it’s scary but it’s secure. it’s like every wish you had ever made, came true. every year when you blow out the candles on the cake, or every time you had wished upon a falling star, the wonder and hopefulness presents itself into a person you get to love. you think, THIS is what i had been waiting for, THIS is exactly what i needed, THIS is a reason to live.

and that person turns into your world. they become your daily routine, even if they aren’t present every day. they are in your mind, and you don’t mind one bit. you think of every moment you spend together. every breath they take, every loud laugh, every sigh when they are frustrated. their signature scent, their morning breath, the feeling of their hand in yours, or their fingers tracing your skin, every soft kiss. every small detail by itself might not mean much, but you wouldn’t trade anything for it.

not everything is perfect, but you wouldn’t change a thing because they are your person. they are every breath you take and every choice you make. your mood reflects theirs and you’re sure they feel the same about you.

adrian is my person, my reason to be. i want to be better for him. he has shown me patience, care, devotion. he has chosen me over and over again, and i will choose him over and over again if that’s what it takes to love him every day for the rest of our lives. falling in love with him has been the most wildest ride i have been on, and he has made me feel every emotion known to man. i would give him my soul if he asked. my love for him is deep rooted, and its real. if adrian is no longer, than i am also no longer. i can’t imagine a world without him and i don’t want to.

i got better for him. now, i will breathe and live for him. i will spend every day loving him, even on my bad days. he is my stars, my moon and my sun. he makes galaxies in my head and universes in my heart. without him, everything would be dark.

thank you for being who you are, adrian, and for offering me a relationship ive wanted and needed all my life.
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TO LIVE


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because i have a small brain …

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☁︎ 11 feb 2024 ⤑ adrian and i got back together ! we are so happy !!

☁︎ 13 feb 2024 ⤑ cardan and i took a blood oath to be there for each other when things get bad. i gave him the nickname caravan
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