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From Bullied Dropout to Hip Hop Knockout

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Growing up as a misfit

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On October 17th, 1972, Marshall Bruce Mathers III was born in St. Joseph, Missouri, to a 15-year-old mother and a runaway father.

He and his mother bounced between Missouri and Michigan – never settling anywhere long enough for Marshall to call it home. They lived in public housing projects as his drug-abusing mother failed to hold a job for more than a few months at a time. Eventually, they settled in a reputedly rough neighborhood in Detroit, where gangs would frequently bully Marshall for reasons he didn’t yet understand.

Things weren’t much better for him at school. Marshall was always the “new kid” so he made very few friends and mostly kept to himself. He was smart but did badly in almost every subject – all except English. Marshall found the power of words fascinating and would study the dictionary to expand his vocabulary. He also loved comic books, devouring them daily and dreaming of illustrating his own comic books in the future.

At nine years old, his shy and reserved nature made him a target for older students. He was cornered in the hallways, shoved into lockers, and beaten up in the bathroom. One episode of bullying sent him to the hospital with cerebral hemorrhage, where he drifted in and out of consciousness for five days. He would write a song about it years later, called Brain Damage.

As the bullying continued and he began having nightmares, Marshall opted to skip school. His grades plummeted and before he knew it, he had failed Grade 9 three times over. There seemed to be nothing going for him until his Uncle Ronnie played him his first rap song – “Reckless” featuring Ice-T. He was instantly hooked.

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Fighting for the chance to rap

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While scrounging for work under the threat of being kicked out by his mother, Marshall poured his heart and soul into the only thing that mattered: music.

At 14, he began rapping with a high-school friend. They frequently skipped class to participate in freestyle rap battles at a nearby school’s lunchroom. Soon enough, Marshall felt like he needed to earn the approval of more than just the high-school crowd. In preparation, he took his initials and renamed himself as “M&M” – which eventually became “Eminem”.

On Saturdays, he and a handful of budding rappers squeezed into open mic contests at the Hip-Hop Shop on West 7 Mile. Being a white boy in a predominantly black scene, he stood out for all the wrong reasons and was constantly booed on stage. However, Eminem was determined to gain their respect and never missed a single battle. It didn’t take long after he opened his mouth to become known as a force to be reckoned with. His fierce rhymes and creative insults often left his opponent stepping down from the stage in surprise.

At 24 years old, with a daughter on the way and an unrelenting need to prove himself, he released his first album called Infinite. It was almost entirely about his upcoming child and was majorly ignored by local DJs and radios. The criticism was brutal and many told him to “go into Rock & Roll instead.” It seemed like the end of the line for Eminem’s career in rap – except he had no intentions of quitting.

"Sometimes you just feel tired, weak. When you do, you gotta find that inner strength, that motivation to not give up."

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Fired, evicted, and chasing the dream

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With the doubt of others spurring him on, Eminem wrote and practiced his rhymes with renewed rage and purpose. He would even rap the food orders he received at Gilbert’s Lodge – a family-style restaurant where he cooked and washed dishes. After the birth of his daughter, Hailie, Eminem worked over 60 hours per week before he was suddenly fired.

With no job, a failed career, and his girlfriend leaving him, Eminem was at an all-time low. He stopped writing music and began taking painkillers to get through the day. While living alone in a crime-ridden neighborhood and unable to see his daughter, he took one too many in an attempt to end his own life.

Fortunately, his suicide attempt was unsuccessful and Eminem soon returned to his music, crafting angrier and moodier tracks than ever before. One day, while on the toilet practicing new rhymes, an idea popped into his mind. Maybe his youthful rage could be included in his music using an alter ego. And so “Slim Shady” was born, a cutthroat personality Eminem would use to channel his darkest thoughts.

At 25, with his eye on the first prize of $500 and a Rolex, Eminem decided to try his luck at the 1997 Rap Olympics in L.A. The night before the event, he came home to a locked door and an eviction notice. Eminem had nowhere else to go, so he broke a window and climbed in. There was no heat, no water, and no electricity – but he slept on the floor nonetheless, anticipating his upcoming opportunity of being heard by top rappers.

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Losing the battle but winning the war

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Eminem was never a confident person, so standing on a stage in front of hundreds of people was no easy feat. But as soon as he held the mic, his fear disappeared and all his pent-up rage came through in his lyrics. By the end of the Olympics, a man in the crowd yelled “Just give it to the white boy. It’s over!” But the judges refused and gave him second place instead.

Eminem was crushed. He returned broke and humiliated to live with his mother, girlfriend, and daughter in a routinely robbed trailer home. However, a copy of his performance was recorded on cassette and passed around. It eventually made its way to the ears of rap producer Dr. Dre – who was instantly impressed. Dre brushed off the resounding criticism and sent out for Eminem, who was undoubtedly astounded that one of his idols wanted to see him.

Soon after, Eminem ambled into Dr. Dre’s recording studio, with bleached blond hair and a bright yellow sweatsuit. Dre had his doubts upon seeing him, but those vanished as he witnessed Eminem blurt out the rhymes for “My Name Is” on the first try. A single that would later earn the young rapper worldwide acclaim.

At 27 years old, Eminem was still struggling to pay rent for his trailer home when his album Slim Shady LP was released. It was like nothing ever heard before in the rap scene. His alter ego “Slim Shady” proved to be a ruthless comedian, combining childish humor with homicidal rage. Shady’s lyrics reflected the adversity in Eminem’s life and his dreams of revenge for those who wronged him.

The album was an instant success, selling over three million copies and winning Eminem a Grammy Award. With money finally rolling in, his very first purchase was a house for his family in a safe neighborhood.

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Success, setbacks, and renewed purpose

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Over the next few years, Eminem released a handful of albums which became top hits worldwide. However, they also sparked a firestorm of criticism due to his controversial lyrics. Fame hit Eminem like a ton of bricks, and his dream of becoming a renowned rapper soon turned into a nightmare.

When he wasn’t being besieged by lawsuits and spiteful family members, he was dogged by the paparazzi and crazed fans. In 2002, while working over 16 hours a day on his movie 8 Mile, Eminem came to a breaking point. He ate nothing but fast food and sleeping pills, becoming unrecognizable to his fans and leading him to another near-death experience.

The prospect of leaving his daughter alone urged him to attend church meetings and rehab. With the help of an unlikely mentor – Sir Elton John – Eminem returned to his music in 2008. He now had a more positive perspective, making his latest records more upbeat and inspirational for those struggling with similar situations. He went on to win a Grammy Award for Best Rap Album.

After a lifetime of fighting his way to the top, Eminem had finally earned the respect of major league Hip Hop artists and more. He is an acclaimed rapper, writer, producer, and even actor. Today, he continues to produce successful records while taking care of his daughter. He also takes time to work with at-risk youth, helping them overcome the same hurdles he once faced.

Regardless of your stance towards his music, Eminem’s life story is an inspiration to anyone who feels like it’s them against the world. He makes a point to tell those feeling hopeless that even when no one believes in you, you have to be the biggest fan of your craft. He insists that you never give up in the fight to prove the world wrong. Because in this crazy, unpredictable life – you have one shot, one opportunity – to make yourself proud.

"Don’t be afraid to try. You can always make something of your life."

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Name; Bella
Age; 15
Birthday; August 8 2003 (you better get me a present hobos)
Sexuality; Bi, female lean ( ti t ti es)
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I live in one of the certified yeehaw states, so don't come for me unless you want me pulling up on my horse B). I look like I belong on tiktok, don't remind me. I am aware of the headassery that has doomed me to look like an eboy for all of eternity. I'm literally mega lame but I've been on this site for a long ass time, at least two years, but my other accounts are long gone. Yes, I admit, I am a google plus refugee, but who cares anymore smdh. Also, anti-vaxx memes are my cup of tea ;).

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To my husband;

If someone told me a couple of years ago that I was going to be happily married and start a family with the most amazing person, I most likely wouldn't have believed them.. Back then I felt that I didn't deserve to be happy, like I wasn't good enough. I starved myself to the point of being hospitalised because the CEO of the modelling company I was part of called me fat. I was hit often by the same man.. I didn't feel safe. I didn't trust anyone. I just.. Wanted everything to stop...

But then you found me. I wasn't looking my best despite coming home from a photoshoot.. Fresh bruises and blood running from my nose as I tried to get home fast. I accidentally bumped into you, Kim Namjoon, and you took me home. You became my home.

You cleaned me up, made sure I ate and when I finally looked you in the eyes. I just knew it would be you. I just.. Was scared. I've been hurt so many times, I was scared it was going to happen again. But you've proven me wrong and I have no regrets for taking that chance. Because damn it, I love you.

I remember how you tripped down the stairs while getting me a blanket. I got so worried.. But you assured me you were fine before letting me pretty much cuddle you on the couch.. I remember falling asleep on you and asking if I could kiss you. I loved our first kiss. It made me realise that I was already in too deep.

I felt I could finally trust someone and smile genuinely. You never judged me. Not for how I looked, how I acted. You just accepted me for me and that's all I could ask for. When you asked me to be with you, I had to say yes. And that was the best decision I ever made. From then on, I just grew happier.

You were and are my rock, Namjoon. My reason to live. My reason to wake up every day because I wake up next to you. You protected me, comforted me, we're always there to hold me when I was down. You never judged me, hurt me or break your promises. You're my soulmate. I'm certain of it. And I will promise you that I will always be by your side. I will never hurt you or break your heart.

You always used to tell me how much you wanted to marry me and start a family. We used to cuddle in bed and just think of names will would give our future kids. You wanted to call one Jin Junior.. You're so cute at times. I just felt so lucky.. I've always dreamed of having a family and you wanted to start one with me..

When I started getting sick, you were so worried. You would sit next to me, rubbing my back with a bottle of water for when I finished. You took me to the doctors and found out the best news.. That I was pregnant. I remember how you cried in the doctors because you were that happy.

You would always kiss my stomach, talk to the baby, made sure I ate a lot since I told you everything about my boss.. You proposed a few weeks after we found out about a baby. Of course I said yes.

Now I couldn't be any happier. You helped me through my recent issues with my boss and made sure me and our son were protected.. Everything you did was to keep up safe. I know it was. I know we have our issues.. All couples do. But I really don't regret a thing. I love you more than my words can describe, Kim Namjoon. I promise I am forever and always yours and I hope you are forever and always mine. I can't wait to make more memories with you, to expand our family. Thank you for always staying by my side through thick and thin.. Thank you for keeping your promises to me.. I will always love you.. Never forget that, daddy.

Your baby,
Seokjin~ ❤️
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MY LITTLE thank you }

This is a thank you letter of sorts?, I think at least.

Nia/Tae. Thank you. Seriously from the bottom of my heart. You and Cas have changed my life in ways I can't begin to explain and you can't imagine. I was a shell of myself before I met you. Taehyung has become to special to me, in ways I can't breach on. He's Jins son, his confidont. His rock. He's the one he turns to when he needs someone. Their relationship is one that I will forever treasure and hold dear to me. I remember I was a scared, scared girl when I first joined this site as Jin. I thought nobody would like me and I'd be just left aside or pushed away, but I wasn't. All because of you and Cas. I love you so much, you're my best friend, my sister. MY Taehyung. I just want you to remember, I got you. No matter what.
It's like you said the other day, things may not be the same as when I first joined, but I know our relationship is one that will last forever. Taehyung will forever have Jin, and you will forever have me. I can assure you of that. You are always there for me and If I were to keep singing your praises, I'd still be here at Christmas. Thank you babe..for everything. I love you.

Casper/Kookie/Whatever other person you are xD
You, Mr are one amazing person. When I'm down, you know. When I'm angry you know, when I'm upset..You get what I'm trying to say here. It's like I said up there ^^^ You and Nia have changed my life so much, in ways you can never begin to imagine and I love you both so much for it. You have become such a light in my life that it's impossible to imagine it dark again. You're Kook is Jin's son, you're my boy and I can't imagine a more sweeter and genuine person than you. Thank you for always being there. Thank you for putting up with me, you and Nia. Just..Thank you. I wish I could say more but I'd be here all day. I've got you're back and remember. You always will come first. Always. You're one person I can always count on and turn to. I'm honoured. I love you so much.

Sammie and your 1000 accounts xD
The first person I met here was you ! You were so friendly and kind and made me feel so welcome and reassured, it's a memory I'll never forget. I admit we've lost contact due to my million and one personas and for that I'm sorry. You're so sweet. You always made me laugh with your crazy ass and I'm so glad I met you.

Matty/Tae/Kook-I met you on Kook after you started writing with me and it's honestly been one of the best experiences. You're so kind and funny and I swear I laugh so much when we joke around. You're an amazing friend and I just hope we grow closer. Stay amazing angel ♡

Hi bb. Thank you so much, since I met you you've been the sweetest thing and I love you and your Hobi. You both have made me smile and Jin feel better when he was down. I can't thank you enough for being there for me earlier and just being my shoulder to figuratively cry on ! I hope to grow closer and I lob you.

And last but not least, Thank you to all those who believed in me.
I always thought I was a bad writer, I was pushes aside and forgotten but since joining this site, I've found my place. I've found my family. People say I'm one of the best Jin's they've met and I used to scoff and play it off because I truly didn't believe I was. When I first got into BTS, Jin was the one I radiated towards because of his personality and gentle way of caring for his boys.After Nia kept saying I was, Cas too, then others joined in heart swells so much. It made me realise, I was good in my own way, and as long as I have these amazing, phenomenal people around me..I have a place. I've found my place finally and I have a family.. I have a purpose and I can't thank you all enough for believing in a broken girl..

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[Character] River

Name: River Styx
Nickname(s): River, Styx, Charon
Age: He has existed since the dawn of time. But he's 19 physically and mostly mentally.
Gender: Male
Sexuality: Straight
Personality: Hates his job. Does it because he has it to. He's a joker and enjoys cynical humor. Don't piss him off. He don't like that.

Eye color: Vantablack
Hair color: Black

—Special Info—
Likes: Chilling out in the underworld
Dislikes: Collecting souls

—Extra information—
Voice reference: N/A
Appearance: See image
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