↬ Elias

【 ᴛʀɪɢɢᴇʀ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢ 】

➥ Heavy drug involvement, self harm

➥ Intended use for crime/angst/romance

【 ɢᴇɴᴇʀᴀʟ 】

Name : Elias Nilsson
Sobriquet : Eli
Gender : Male
Age : 24
Species : Human
Hometown : Stockholm, Sweden
Currently living : Where the roleplay is set, moved there when he was too young to really remember his home town

【 ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴᴀʟɪᴛʏ 】

Traits :
- Critical
- Obsessive
- Intolerant
- Difficult
- Hotheaded

- Protective
- Loyal
- Stoic
- Creative

Hobbies :
- Painting
- Drinking
- ???

Habits :
- Jaw clenching through tension
- Drinking
- Pacing
- Chewing on pens/pencils while focused
- Arguing

Fears :
- ???
- ???

【 sᴇxᴜᴀʟ 】

Orientation : Bisexual, heavy male lean
Kinks : Breath play, being in full control, spitting, dominating, begging
Hookups or Relationships : Hookups
Position : Strictly dominant

【 ᴘʜʏsɪǫᴜᴇ 】

Height : 6'4
Hair : Black, short
Eyes : A soft, light blue
Piercings : None
Scars : Multiple around his body, different causes, mostly self inflicted burns

【 ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ 】

Drinker? : Yes
Smoker? : Yes
Recreational drug user? : Yes
Which? : Mainly focuses on Xanax
Mental illnesses : Clear signs of OCD, but there's certainly something else wrong with him

【 ʜɪs sᴛᴏʀʏ 】

➥ Elias was fairly normal growing up. It wasn't until he reached puberty that things seemed to change for him.
Nothing about his home life felt like it was enough to trigger such a change in personality, at least from the eyes of his parents of which he was quite close to, up until his father fell seriously ill. When he passed away, he and his mother grew apart, as he distanced himself from that completely. It was then that emotions became a problem for him. He used everything to shut himself off from them, since they were far too overwhelming to deal with.

School became increasingly difficult from the age twelve and onwards. His father was dead, his mom was trying to reach him and he'd continuously shut her out. All of these new feelings were reaching him and he loathed them, simply someone who couldn't handle them, especially as any attempt at any kind of relationship seemed to fail him. In general, Elias had been feeling as though there was something wrong with him for a long while, and that was only amplified by this stage.

Looking back on it by the time he was sixteen, things at home could've been a little better. His father had toxic masculinity issues, seeming to accidentally pass some of them onto Elias, though he found himself not at all being misogynistic unlike his father. His mother had at least managed to drill that into him correctly, with the little communication they had now.
However, unfortunately because of his father's "old ways", it was hard for Elias to come to terms with his sexuality to start with. The confusion frustrated him. It brought him to become quite angry, which lead to many fights at school, enough to land him in therapy quickly. It was actually there that he learned to accept that small part of him, though still so far from fixing himself in general. There was still so much anger and no one, including himself, knew where it was coming from.

By the time he was eighteen he was out partying often. It wasn't until one late night that he was walking home, when someone would attempt to mug him. With a bit of a fight ensuing, it ended with Elias killing the attacker, and he was walking away with a gunshot to the arm.
The police were involved of course, but for some reason he didn't get punished. His mother had tipped them off, paying a hefty amount just to keep him from being charged. It was self defense anyway, why should he be punished?
In a way he wished he had. After taking that man's life, he'd been haunted by that for years following. It never left him, it kept him up at night, and now he felt nothing.

Xanax was regularly abused by him after that, helping him keep numb and he was skipping days. In his early twenties now, he was in the business of selling drugs. He was heavily relied on, making himself known within that scene and keeping himself at a good reputation. It kept money in his pocket, allowing him to hold down his own flat. He never saw his mother anymore.

Most of his days now are spent keeping his house completely clean, getting high, and waiting for texts to request what he has to offer. He doesn't have much drive for success anymore, completely lost but won't admit it.

【 ᴇxᴛʀᴀ / ᴏᴘᴛᴏɴᴀʟ 】

➥ Elias will not physically abuse the people he's in a relationship with, though he will likely be toxic in many other ways. He isn't good with people and doesn't know how to hold down a relationship

➥ Elias is very hard to get involved with, he requires patience and time

➥ Can be found at parties/bars/gigs/concerts
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1 | Oct 28th 2021 07:54