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Self Love.

When I discovered what I was, I was simply terrified. It didn't feel right. The feeling of being neither male or female kinda popped and exploded inside me like a bag of popcorn in the microwave. I hated myself. I felt as if my mind and my body turned against one another while I was curled up in a corner waiting for it all to feel okay again. I live in the southern states of America, where people aren't to happy to the idea of change. Ignorance is cool where I live.

So, when I felt comfortable with myself to come out as Agender to my family, they weren't happy at all. They romoved me from all the pictures in the house and kicked my out of the home I grew up in. They completely disowned me. It was my worst fear come true. Luckily, my best friend let me stay with her and her mom until I could get back up onto my feet.

While I was homeless, I had to learn a kind of self love and appreciation that I never knew exsisted. I had to learn how to make myself feel comfortable in my own skin. I had to understand that no one was going to do anything for me. So, I had to make myself stronger. I had to teach myself that I had to put myself before everything, even the people I thought were my family and friends. I learned that being related to someone doesn't always mean that you have to put them before yourself.

Self love is more than overcoming your insecurities. It's about knowing that you can be selfish. It's understanding that you, yourself deserve your love and and affection more than anyone or anything in the universe. And when you know that, you won't have to worry about people being ignorant. Because it won't matter anymore.

Learning self love is the best thing you could do to your mind. It won't be easy. It took me years and years to finnaly understand it, and I still have doubts. It doesn't mean everyday will be happy and stress free, it means that you will learn how to let go of a lot of pain and tension in your mind.

(I know this is something a lil different than what I normally do here. I just had to get all this off my chest. Ily ❤)
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~Fantasy Medieval OC~

Full Name: Arlen Norzana
Nickname: Arlo
Gender: Male
Species: Elf
Age: 200
Allergies: Cats
Eye color: Golden
Hair color/style: Snow white, short
Body Type: Slim
Height: 5’9
Weight: 190
Outfit/Clothing style: He makes his own clothing
Sexual Orientation: Bisexual
Relationship status: Single
Occupation: He was once a strong mage that worked for a long lost kingdom, but know he is a dragon tamer
Personality: He keeps to himself and doesn’t speak much to others unless absolutely necessary, other than that he’s really kind
Likes: His dragons, his cave, his home, sewing and making clothes, taming dragons, the sky, clouds
Dislikes: Other people, humans, any kind of social interaction
Powers/abilities: Arlen is strange, for most of his life he’s been able to tame and befriend one of the most dangerous creatures there are.
Fears: His dragons being taken away or turning on him, death
Weakness/disabilities:He’s not very good at fighting when his dragons aren’t around.
Bio: Arlo was born in a royal family long ago as a prince. When he was very young, his kingdom was destroyed by a raging dragon.He was the only one that was spared by the ruthless dragons. They took him to their home where Arlen built a house and lives to this day. No one knows his identity, but he’s known for killing criminals that the Elven kingdom is after. He’s friends with the elven kingdom but he doesn't really like or dislike them since when he was discovered by them, one of their soldiers shot one of his dragons out of the sky. Ever since then he’s been helping the elven kingdom from afar in his cave.
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~Valkyrie OC~

Full Name: Ambryl
Nickname: Amber
Gender: Female
Species: Valkyrie
Age: Unknown
Allergies: None
Eye color: Teal
Hair color/style: Hazelnut brown, long
Body Type: Slim
Height: 5’9
Weight: 200 (mostly due to her wings)
Outfit/Clothing style: She favors leather armor but you may occasionally see her in metal armor
Sexual Orientation: Bisexual
Relationship status: Single
Occupation: She used to be a Valkyrie, but now she works as a General on earth.
Personality: She’s very sweet and kind. Sometimes she can get a bit protective due to her past. She’s known for giving gifts and being a little too generous.
Likes: The sky, clouds, birds, any kind of weapon, giving gifts, making friends, the battlefield.
Dislikes: Thunderstorms, Odin, Thor, Loki, Royalty of any kind, cats, dogs
Powers/abilities: Valkyries are known to choose who will die on the battlefield but she hasn't had that job in a long time so she’s forgotten how. She knows the way to Valhalla but she hasn’t been there in decades. She’s a very good fighter. She also has the ability to fly due to her massive wings on her back.
Fears: Dying, cats, Thunder
Weakness/disabilities: If it starts to thunder she gets very frightened. She’s willing to do anything and everything for the people she loves, even it if means she’ll die.
Bio: Valkyries are a group of female warriors that protect asgard and choose what soldiers will die in the battlefield. They also choose what warriors go to Valhalla, a heaven meant for strong warriors who died in battle. Ambryl is a rare case, she was banished to earth for betraying Odin in Asgard. When she first arrived to earth, all she did was assist believers in Norse mythology in battle before she was approached by one of the most powerful kings on earth. She was turned into a soldier and slowly made her way up to General in the royal guard.
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~Angel OC~

Full Name: Hadraniel
Nickname: None
Gender: Male
Species: Angel
Age: Unknown
Allergies: None
Eye color: Blue
Hair color/style: Long, light pink
Body Type: Well built
Height: 5’8
Weight: 190
Outfit/Clothing style: he typically something that is comfortable
Sexual Orientation: gay af
Relationship status: Single
Occupation: He’s the Angel of Love
Personality: He very kind and a bit of a pushover. He’s kind of shy, and gets flustered easily.
Likes: Sunsets, pink, animals, couples, love, children, summer, the sun
Dislikes: Night, darkness, arguments, being yelled at, break ups, sadness, crying, when people make fun of him or others
Powers/abilities: He has the ability to make anyone fall in love
Fears: Lucifer, God, being banished
Weakness/disabilities: He isn’t very strong
Bio: Hadraniel is the Angel of Love, he was created by god to make humans on earth fall in love with each other. His lifelong dream is to find love for himself but he rarely gets to meet anyone that he could become friends with or even talk to.
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~Demon OC~

Full Name: Axel Myers
Nickname: A**hole, F***face, Etc.
Gender: Male
Species: Demon
Age: over 1,000
Allergies: Oranges
Eye color: Golden
Hair color/style: White, hangs down to his shoulder
Body Type: He’s pretty ripped
Height: 6’4
Weight: 189
Outfit/Clothing style: He’s cares way too much about fashion.
Sexual Orientation: Gay af
Relationship status: He’s single, but isn’t lookin for a long term relationship.
Occupation: Working for Satan
Personality: He’s an a**hole. Straight up. He doesn’t really care about anything or anyone. By when he does fall for someone, he’s willing to kill the entire population all for their happiness and well being.
Likes: Blood, Killing, Annoying his brother King, having sex, breaking hearts, murder, eating human souls, etc.
Dislikes: King, Angels, God, heaven, other Demons, being yelled at, children, babies, cries humans
Fears: Loving someone
Weakness/disabilities: He’s deathly allergic to Oranges. This man will actually die if an orange even touches him.
Bio: //Bird will do this later
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