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f i v e : My Healer

When I first met you,

I felt like I had known you forever,

telling you my secrets

and what I didn't want ever.

You listened to me.

I bet you thought I'd never end.

Who would have thought

we would become more than just friends?

Over a period of time

I got to know the real you.

A boy, so caring and gentle,

with a heart so true.

You've survived your life

with hurt and loneliness by your side.

I told you I'd never leave

because of the feelings I have inside.

I know you, you are my healer

like no one I have ever known,

and sometimes I wonder

what I'd do if you were gone?

So I have decided time answers all.

If it is meant to be,

time will remove the wall.

I love the way we are together.

You can always make me smile.

Will it ever really be forever?

I guess I will have to wait a while.

Time will reveal what lies ahead,

but always remember what I have said.

Meeting you has changed my life,

and I really love you so.

The feelings I feel for you,

I am never letting go.

Remember me always

and I will, too.

I always think of

me and you


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2 | 30 Comments | Feb 14th 2020 04:03

f o u r : secret thoughts

I love you...why can't you see it? it hurts me a lot but I love your smile so I'll stay quiet,
I'm not more than a curse I want you to have blessings, though which is not me but...that person
how funny i was clueless myself, until you did kissed that person
my heart burned right then and there but then i realized i lost my chance by one second
please dont make me smile that makes me want to be with you but i hate you now
im sorry i dont hate you...i'l l do everything for the smile, i love baby,
even if i dont so show you , i'll love you forever, sorry im slow haha dont blame me,
love is all about giving and that what i'll do for you just by smiling brightly.

crying secretly.


OOOHOOO Haesuk is in love ~
damn poor girl.
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2 | 4 Comments | Feb 6th 2020 09:33

t h r e e : Nightmares

Trees, trees, trees
Branches, sticks, leaves
Whipping, gashing, slashing at my arms
I can't get away no matter how fast I run

Tripping, falling, crawling on the floor
Ragged cuts, tattered clothes, jagged breathing as I start to slow
My eyes are heavy, my vision blurred
Distant images start to stir

He's right behind me, he's catching up
I have to keep moving, but my legs have had enough
Getting dizzy, about to pass out, a distant figure starts to stand out
A distant scream, a whispered plea, I can't believe it came from me

Pulse is racing, a feeling of hands, a gentle hush as I'm helped to stand
It's him, he's caught me, please strength don't leave me yet
Let me be anything but his sullied pet
I have to leave, I have to get away, I fall to my knees and let my head sway

Stopping, he stares at me and gives a mirrored laugh
Then he reaches for me as I start to move back
I'm to slow, he's to fast, I can't get away, he's taking me back
I can't let this happen, I must react

Head's too fuzzy, I'm getting too weak
I'm stumbling over my own feet
One chance, a pull, a twist, a pop and a moan
I'm not the one with a broken bone

I'm still running, he's still coming
My strength's about to give out
Dead end, cliffs end, water and rocks below
Tell me, if you had a choice which way would you go

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T w o : Past

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Haesuk always disliked her so called parents, her dad is a man who only cares about his money and reputation, where his wife, haesuk's step mother Jihye is just the same but loves her daughter SooAh, but SooAh loved and cared for her step sister just like an elder sibling would. she was always with haesuk and took care for her, she hated the way her parents treated her like an object, since childhood, their father always forced haesuk to do what he thought was the best, without caring for her comfort. He forced haesuk to be behave more 'lady like' with the help of his wife, where haesuk never understood why everyone hated the way she was,. even they Home-schooled her crashing her dream to make friends and play with other kids, she was just like an caged bird.

Haesuk, lost her own mother when she only five. she remembers, her mother was a lover of music and an amazing singer, maybe thats where... she got the passion she holds for music today, her mom was a soft spoken beautiful lady, always treated everyone with kindness, but unfortunately...good things didnt last long in her life,years ago when they were going to their home from haesuk school, they got into an brutal car accident, haesuk made it alive but due to saving her, her mother couldn't, haesuk still has the scar on her belly from that accident, but that's doesn't matters, since the scars on her heart are much scarier. Since then she hates traveling in car, and deep down she feels that if she died back than it would have been better.

It was the year 2019 when haesuk was only 18, her father decided to marry off her elder daughter to his business rival, to increase his empire and be more powerful, but after a discussion with his wife he changed his decision, now instead of his elder daughter he decided to marry off haesuk, after all she never took a interest in their business, only music was in her mind which was useless for him, where his elder daughter was an intelligent woman who got the ability to run a business empire.

After hearing this news, haesuk did what she could scream, yell, beg ...but no one listen to her, even her sister whom she looked up to, didnt said anything, she felt betrayed and lonely, she felt suffocated,...

That day she made a decision, she knew it would be risky maybe her dad ... kill her this time, but it was better than marrying at such young age and giving up on her dreams, music was the only thing she got from her mother, a gift she Treasures more than anything. She waited untill it was past midnight, she took her belongings and stole money from her dad's locker, and ran away. Though it wasn't easy with so many guards but she did it. She was in Incheon back then but by hiding her identity she made it to Seoul, where she thought her dreams will spread their wings. She suffered few days even starved, not knowing anyone and her socialy awkward self. But then one day she bumped into JYP - a popular name among underground producers and rapper , who needed an assistant, and this is where her journey started. JYP took her under his wing, and helped her a lot, even tho they bicker a lot but deep down haesuk is grateful to him for everything he did for her. and started her career as an underground rapper-songwriter and producer, she got inspired by Agust D a big name b/w underground rappers and musicians. because their journey was...kind of similar .

there are few errors, ill correct them soon.
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O n e : intro


Real Name : Min Shin-Hye

Currently used name: Zhang Haesuk

Reason: She changed her name, because she didn't wanted a name which reminds of her past and family

Alias : Dragon {given by her boss}

Nicknames : sukie, hae{self given,}

Age : 19

Height : 5'3

Weight : 110 lbs / 50 kg

Eye color : Honey brown

Hair Color : Blackish brown

blood group: B+

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Scars : A scar on her belly, she got in a car accident in her childhood.

Tattoos : On her right arm, of a fire Dragon, which symbols power, hope, and anger

Glasses or Contacts: wears glasses while doing assignments or working, hates contacts

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Job : works as an assistant producer, sometimes she takes part in underground rap battles

Pay : It depends actually

qualification: currently in college majoring in music.


Likes : sleeping,food, making music, the color black

Dislikes : people from college and work, not being able listen to music or sleep,sweets.

Personality : lowkey Lazy, doesn't smiles often,RBF, says rude comments w/o realizing, a softie and bubbly girl on the inside, crackhead, gets angered easily, lowkey easily jealous

Good traits : kind, giving, determined, friendly, will do anything to make her loved one smile.

Bad Traits : forgetful, tries to run away if gets stuck in something, foul mouth, gets into fist fight.

Habits : saying 'yar' instead of your/you're, chewing her pens.

sexuality: straight {Except for her professor Jihyo}

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Mother : Min HaeWon, at the age of 29 she died saving haesuk in a car accident, haesuk was only 5 years old then.

Father :Min SiWoo/55, a powerful businessman runs a gaming company, haesuk and her dad never got along.

step-mother: Min Jihye/50, a Fashion designer, cold towards haesuk.

siblings: Park Jimin/25 @adeqaute (not blood related to
others but actually closer that that)

Half-Sister : Min SooAh/25, cares a lot about haesuk.

Relationship : Taken by @SpringBlossom [13/02/20]

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Mental Health :5/10
Physical Health : 6/10
Phobias : Lepidopterophobia [ fear of butterflies]
Disorders : Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
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