'无言独上西楼
月如钩
寂寞梧桐深院
锁清秋
剪不断
理还乱
是离愁
别是一般滋味
在心头'
-by Li Yu
Recently, I was rereading 'A Game of Thrones', and found myself thinking, "You know, it sucks that Eddard Stark was beheaded, but honestly, what else was supposed to happen? He tried to betray an established monarch. Sure, Joffrey was illegitimate and a ******* *******, but truth and honor make for a really flimsy shield."
This might seem like a pretty logical conclusion at which to arrive, but I've always been ruled by passion, not logic. At heart, I'll always be a Stark of Winterfell, but being able to see things in a rational, clear-headed manner, even with regards to a work of fiction is a big deal for me.
Though I do sometimes miss the undertow of emotions, love and lust and longing ruling over all, I have to admit, the ability to distance myself and gain some perspective is...a relief.
Especially now that I no longer NEED love, no longer CRAVE it, but merely want and welcome it. I'm able to go into interactions with curiosity about the other person, rather than trepidation, and "Oh God what if they don't like me? What cliff shall I throw myself off of?"
Over the last four years, I've grown, I'm proud to say. I've explored both sides of Dominance and submission, learned a lot about myself.
But some things have stayed the same. The quickest way to stoke these internal flames is still the written and spoken word. Kindness, consideration, humor, and intelligence are still my biggest turn ons. A thoughtful and well-researched compliment doesn't hurt either. And I still experience that visceral and almost holy combination of love and fear that comes when that D/s dynamic is really and truly working.
I'm rambling. My name is of no importance. I am a poet, a writer and a lifestyler. Being that I like to include a bit of myself in my roleplays, the main type of roleplay genres I enjoy will be of the adult nature. No minors (18+), I don't want to make things awkward out of the gate. I'm not a stickler for exacts so you are free to roleplay whatever age you so desire and or want, as long as you the admin are not a minor.
I am straight but I am open to female x female, I write for the experience so I'm not quick to write off anyone or anything. I'll try anything once and if I don't like it, well then that's just my experience. I am new to roleplay, but I am not new to writing. Please, be gentle with me...or not. Adversity does build character.
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