FAVORITE HAUNTINGS TO SET THE MOOD:

‣ Biting Down - Lorde

‣ Paint It, Black - Ciara (Cover)

‣ I Found - Amber Run

‣ Mr. Sandman - SYML

‣ Hit the Road Jack - 2WEI, Bri Bryant (Cover)

‣ Devil's Playground - The Rigs

‣ Murky - Saint Mesa

‣ Gasoline - Halsey

‣ Mary Magdalene - FKA Twigs

‎‣ Smoking Section - St. Vincent

‣ Thanatos - Soap&Skin

‣ Girl With One Eye Open - Florence and The Machine

‣ The Yawning Grave - Lord Huron

‣ Brother Run Fast - KALEO

‣ Wishing Well (feat. Lucy Tops) - Stomper

‣ I'm Gonna Haunt You - IV and The Strange Band (Cover)

‣ God's Gonna Cut You Down - Johnny Cash‎

‣ Why We Build The Wall - Anais Mitchell, Greg Brown

‣ Seven Devils - Florence and The Machine

‣ In The Woods Somewhere - Hozier

‣ Me and the Devil - Soap&Skin

‣ Stretch Your Eyes - Agnes Obel

‣ Fight Like God - Chelsea Wolfe

‣ Loving, Loving - Vera Sola

‣ You Don't Own Me - Tamino

‣ Back Pack - AJJ

‣ White Lie - The Lumineers

‣ Reading In Bed - Emily Haines & The Soft Skeleton

‣ The Lion and the Wolf - Thrice

‣ Nothing Else Matters - Phoebe Bridgers (Cover)

‣ Between the Bars - Chris Garneau (Cover)

‣ Riverside - Agnes Obel

‣ Claude's Girl - Marika Hackman

‣ Where Did You Sleep Last Night - Madjo

‣ Carolina - Taylor Swift

‣ You Are My Sunshine - The Civil Wars (Cover)

‣ Bitter and Sick - One Two

‣ Pearl Diver - Mitski

‣ Dream Sweet in Sea Major - Miracle Musical

‣ Tennessee Waltz - Patti Page

‣ Silent Night - Frank Sinatra

‣ The End of the World - Sharon Van Etten (Cover)

‣ Miriam - Norah Jones

‣ We'll Meet Again - She & Him (Cover)

‣ You Always Hurt the One You Love - Luka Sital-Singh

‣ Moon River - Audrey Hepburn (Cover)

‣ Hidden In the Sand - Tally Hall

‣ I Won't Hurt You - Nae Maya (Cover)

‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎“The moment Loss pays a brief visit to her home of thoughts, she already is made aware of its inevitability. It never visits empty-handed. It never visits like a guest. It only visits like a landlord — She begs the greediness in it to take up all she has just to leave these four walls around her, and it does take up all she has, anyway, to leave her with the exact four walls she asked for, only on the condition of bulldozing the ceiling.

She has known Loss almost her entire life — in the shapes of her pets on her bed, in her name inside all her lovers’ mouths before they fell forever silent, in her friend’s pills, in her family bloodline, in her mother’s dreams and the back of her father’s hands. She knows when Loss approaches, when it peaks around the bush, and when its ghost watches her somewhere from a twentieth floor with a sniper in hand.

You see, Loss never visits compromised; the more she makes up her mind to its own, the less and even lesser she’s still left with. Tell her, dearest God, How else would it have earned its name? She only looked both ways before crossing the street to approach him for she only feared for his life saving hers, but now she hides the features of his face in the palm of her hands and the cavity of her chest.

“None of it this was meant to be gentle,” She wept to herself into a portal of delusions with her head held by the only dangling string of faith she desperately saved for herself, and her boy bleeding his youth away between her weary arms. “All of it was meant to be a knife to twist inside and turn the water red or it's all in vain.”

One never breaks a cycle whole and healed, one only breaks it tormented and half-forgiven. And she’s breaking hers loathed, she's breaking hers in death.”

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎I. I’m a writer and poet with an entire blog site of my work under my full name, so, it’s safe to trust my literacy and details when it comes to creative work. Although I’m not new here by any means, it’s important to consider the fact I’ve taken a long hiatus from roleplaying to focus on solo writing; hence, my skills might be rusty, but it’s worth to be picked up again. This is a quiet call for help to be adopted by those who are willing to be patient with me as I try to pick up the pieces again.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎II. I’m very selective about whom I want to write with. I cannot stress it enough from the deepest core of my heart, but it genuinely is nothing personal if it didn’t work out. I do believe everyone here deserves to have their own preferences in writers they’d love to work with, and not settle down for anything less. When a piece of work is grounded, moving, and attractive enough for both writers alike to keep their passion for it going, wonders do happen.

I have a flowery, intense, and unique style in writing that I don’t wish to tame for anybody else, but also would never force anyone to sit through it either. I’m in love with experimenting with different voices and structuring words in a beautifully new order every single time. I’m hoping my writing partners would have the same love to pour into their crafts and match each other’s levels, where we can balance it out together.

I know this little silly hobby on such a silly website has zero chance of getting published into an actual book, but I’d still love to work with someone who’d act like the drafts are going through a publisher by tomorrow morning. If you can inspire me enough that I can just feel my words overflow naturally with you, then you’ve already won me over. I want my writing partner to also be my audience and my fan of what I do, just as much as I want to be fascinated enough by them and their work, too. Easy as that. If it’s not entertaining enough to get the adrenaline going for both of us back and forth, then what’s the point of it all?

(Here's a sample of my work: www.roleplay.me/blog/277384)

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎III. Dialogues and narration got to be my favorite part to work on when alone or with someone else. Most of the time, the plot and world-building wouldn’t matter to me if I’m confident enough in how I’d like to deliver them with enough elements to work with. I love living right inside my characters’ emotions and thoughts more than their surroundings, so, my descriptions are more internal than external. Of course, there are genres I wouldn’t know how to work with, so it’s safe to ask me about them while plotting.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎IV. Speaking of genres, you’ll find my best work within Drama, Romance, and Psychological Thriller. Put all three in a blender and you get 90% of my original solo work that I already write in my spare time! There’s something mysteriously magnetic in the intensity of it all for me. I don’t mind trying out new genres, but this is the secret sauce to keep my attention span hyper-focused all on our RP. It goes without saying that dark themes would take part in it.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎V. Plotting. My least favorite part. I don’t enjoy overplotting my work, which I know it’s an issue with most people on here. Though I understand where they’re coming from, it also doesn’t leave a space for characters to develop their own characteristics and dynamics throughout the storyline as they go, which is awfully rigid and greatly inflexible, in my opinion. Let your characters carry the story out naturally on their own, you people. Stop controlling every single breath they take.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎VI. The previous rule isn’t an invitation for you to throw a starter into my face without discussing the bigger picture of how we want the story to unfold beforehand, it’s a mood killer and offensive not to communicate with me. Just because I’m not a fan of overplotting, doesn’t mean under plotting has a higher chance to pass. This is not how it works. Talk with me and all shall be good and clear.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎VII. Please don’t ask me to write in the first person. I love switching between present and past tense depending on context and the storyline’s timeline, but it will always be in the third person.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎VIII. My ideal lengths as I’m starting out with RP again for the first time in a while is somewhere between semi and para for now, but I can very easily hit three, long paragraphs for starters, major scenes, and everything else when I’m greatly inspired and my partner gives me something to work with.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎IX. I’m a college student with a job, personal projects, and a social life on the side. It’s impossible to expect a reply from me in a timely manner, especially if we decided on lengthy replies for our RP. To be fair enough, this is why I’m only looking for two or three maximum long-term writers I can stick to. It’s the only way I can manage it all together and enjoy it without collapsing. Please don’t stress me out for a reply, but you can check in with me if I haven’t written back in a week. I'd understand your situation in delays as well.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎X. I love interactions, memes, asks, playlists, moodboards and all the cliches for our RP. I’ll literally eat it all up! I love communicating and fangirling OOC way too much, and I'd appreciate it if my partners were enjoying themselves with it as well.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎XI. I’m naturally playful, approachable, and flirty once I get comfortable enough but I’m still aware of boundaries, so please, for the sake of whatever you believe in, this is not an invitation to get personal with me about my life if I didn’t give you the permission to be. I try my best to keep everything as light-hearted and fun as possible, but please don’t use it to your advantage. This place is already weird enough.

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎XII. I don't bite. I promise. I'm still friendly and a bit too burnt out and silly for all of this. Let's enjoy it while it lasts.

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