I decided to write my story on how I was treated and what happened during my time with my mistah J, this happened before I joined this site, but it’s taken me this long because I’ve been trying to gather my feelings, this is very personal, but I feel like everyone should know what I went through

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I remember when we first met, you seemed great, if only I knew, I was young and knew nothing about what you were into. It was fairytales and rainbows at first, us talking about our future, like we’d ever have one. You changed over the past few months, asking me to call you a name I wasn’t comfortable with. I needed love, I needed comfort, you never gave me that, it was always your way, never mine. I thought I could change you, but how can I change someone who’s unwilling to change? That was my first mistake, my second mistake was coming back, my third was trusting you again, thinking it could work, I was wrong. You called me an experiment, people are not experiments. People are people but you’d never get that. You are like the joker, unwilling to change, always after something else, pretending to love me but we both know you didn’t. You just wanted a project to work on. You came back, felt nothing, but I wanted something more, you took time to write me a damn f***ing letter as to why you were breaking my heart, what broke me the most was you calling me an emotional abuser when all I wanted was love, someone who could be there for me.

5 years on, I’ve grown, you haven’t, trying to get women to love you when they just want to be left alone, even lost your best friend along the way, I’m with her, by the way, I comfort her when she needs it, she comforts me when I need it, she’s more of a man then you could ever be. Living four years in political hell made me realize, oddly enough, that you are just like that sleaze ball, making up excuses for your own mistakes, trying to get women who want NOTHING to do with you. You aren’t a joker card, no. You are a trump card, a complete sleaze ball trying to get women to love you, desperate, pathetic.

I had to speak up all those years ago, because I felt unseen. You don’t know what a woman is thinking or feeling. Tell me, would you treat your own mother or sister like crap? Because if so, I hope that god can find it in his heart to forgive you. If not, why would you treat a random woman like that?

I’m happier now, I tell myself trying to sound sincere, but then I remember I have more people who love me for me, can you say the same? You push away everyone and don’t respect others, that’s not a true man. A true man let’s his feeling be known, is vulnerable to the person he’s with, doesn’t try to change the person he’s with, RESPECTS the person he’s with. You never did that, or at least it felt that way to me.

I’m 30 now, the story of you is you taught me how to recognize abusive relationships, you taught me how to better treat myself, you made me cautious about opening up in general, I already was cautious before you, I’m more cautious now then I was then. You taught me how to recognize red flags when I see them.

You were the biggest mistake I’ve ever made, but the mistake I needed to get better. I just wish I was the same for you. Maybe if I was the same for you, you would be a better man and learn from your mistake. But I see you haven’t, you haven’t changed like I hoped you would. I learned a lot about what you like and learned that it’s always the girl that’s In control, it’s what they want, not the other way around, you need to learn to understand that women are people too, you can’t just say ‘you’re the Batman to my joker’ to your friend and expect her to take it well, you know how crazy that sounds right? But you are, you are the joker. I was willing to do whatever you wanted back then, honestly, I do secretly wish we could have a do over but I know that that would just make me Harley, just like you wanted, and I don’t want that. You need to change, maybe some therapy on how to treat women better because honestly, no woman is going to respect you if you keep treating them like crap. You are lucky I haven’t told anyone in my real life this, because if I told my best friend she would beat your ass so hard for how you treated me. She’s very very protective, be thankful you aren’t on her radar.

My story without you has been lovely, I have a new little nephew who is adorable, been working on myself more, been learning to love myself. It’s been great, my recommendation for you is take a break from women, learn to love yourself before you try again, you need to figure some things out obviously, do that before you go chasing after women, it’ll do you some good. I hope you do learn to grow into your own like I have, sure I still have some problems, but I know how relationships are suppose to work now, I know what I want in a man now, and newsflash it ain’t you. I wish you the best in finding your punchline.


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This man was my joker, plain and simple, I left because he didn’t treat me like how I wanted to be treated, but I learned a lot, and if you guys even care then thank you for reading and hearing my story.

Edit: this is pre-Ecco being Harley and Jeremiah existing. So keep that in mind please.

Name: Harleen Gordon
Age: 19
Gender: female
Sexuality: bisexual
Siblings: one brother. detective Jim Gordon.
Status: locked in arkham
Crimes: killing her mother -she was inspired by a Certain ginger maniac.
Obsessions: Jerome valeska. She first Encountered Jerome on her bus while they were headed to cheerleading practice. She has been obsessed with him ever since. She said that he 'inspired' her to kill her own mother. She also said her mother was a bad therapist. That she would drink rather then listen to the patients. KEEP HER AWAY FROM MISTER VALESKA AT ALL COSTS.
Weakness: she gets extremely jealous when Jerome flirts with other girls. She doesn't like that and will bash them ( verbally and physically) until they either die or go away forever.
danger level: xxxx

Name: Robin Selina Wayne
Age: 18
Gender: female
Parent: Bruce Wayne (mother died in child birth)
History: Bruce Wayne kept his little girl locked away because he never wanted Gotham to know he had a secret daughter. due to her father being batman, villains had always fascinated her. How they got started, how they came up with the name, costume, ect. But none fascinated her more than the joker. He was her father's number one enemy. So she got herself kidnapped at a ball, where the joker came in and ruined it.

He took her to his hideout and tortured her. She didn't give in. So he gave her some of scarecrows fear toxin and what she saw was terrible. She saw her dad laying on the ground, dead. The gun was in her hand. After she came out of the nightmare, she promised to stay with him if he didn't make her kill her father. The joker agreed and together they came up with her new name- Harley Quinn.

Theme: daddy's little girl by Jessie McCartney

So dimples playlist is actually the full album of Melanie martinez all the songs have a meaning:

1. Crybaby- her father used to call her a crybaby because she would sometimes cry to get what she wanted
2. Dollhouse- the unseen world of the jokers family, such as him abusing Harley and Dimples sometimes. (Dimples also uses "we'll be the perfect family" line on batty a lot)
3. Sippy cup- dimples sees what her parents do. It's also a tribute to the miscarrge her mother had before her.
4.carousel- her feeling towards batty.
5. Alphabet boy- this is a song about the joker and how dimples thinks she can be better than him.
6. Soap- she once told ace that she loved him, he has never let that go and it annoys her.
7. Training wheels- another batty song, what she wants from batty.
8. Pity party- her 16th birthday
9. Tag, you're it- her 16th birthday when Johnny molested her.
10. Milk and cookies- her 16th birthday, when her daddy killed Johnny so he wouldn't hurt his little girl again.
11. Pacify her- a song about batty and how she wants him to love her and not his actual girlfriend
12. Mrs potato head- her, her tattoos, her family and some of her friends.
13. Mad hatter- a tribute to her mother and father.
14. Play date- another song for batty.
15. Teddy bear- Freakshow (batty/dimples) song, and or playing cards ( Dimples/ ace) song
16. cake- batty song.

Name: Anthony spade
Nickname: ace spade, Acey boy, Acey.
Age: 36
Backstory: all we know about Ace is that he used to be dimples therapist. Recommended by the batman as ace spade could not be manipulated, or so we thought. He treated dimples as best he could. Doing a lie detector test every session just to be safe. He went to extreme measures to get dimples to cooperate. He branded the back of her hand just for lying. (Need to confirm if that is allowed at arkham) DImples put on her cry baby routine and Ace fell for it. He was then knocked out and taken to ace chemicals where he tried to stop dimples and her father from transforming him, but her father is actually the cause of his transformation. The joker pushed ace into the chemicals. Ace calls dimples his queen, but is often treated badly by dimples herself, much like the joker with Harley.
Danger: * * * *
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