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LaNi.
Uki speaks a lot about people, but in truth, he knows nothing about them. He doesn't know the real way they think, live and behave. He sees it all from a very cold and distanced, emotionless point of view.
To his perspective, the only logical thing someone in LaNi's position could have done, would be to seek the help of the enemy in hope to gain an advantage for himself. But obviously, he is totally wrong.
He can't have any idea what's going on inside LaNi's mind at the moment, how much he is suffering, how deeply Uki's revelation hurt him. To know that he IS the cure, not someone who has to find it. He is just something, not someone. It all really adds to his complexes of not being a person, due to the way he was created.
To his perspective, the only logical thing someone in LaNi's position could have done, would be to seek the help of the enemy in hope to gain an advantage for himself. But obviously, he is totally wrong.
He can't have any idea what's going on inside LaNi's mind at the moment, how much he is suffering, how deeply Uki's revelation hurt him. To know that he IS the cure, not someone who has to find it. He is just something, not someone. It all really adds to his complexes of not being a person, due to the way he was created.
The unavoidable.
Leo keeps visiting LaNi every day, with the diary matter not even being needed as an excuse anymore. Clearly LaNi doesn't mind his presence and starts soon to appreciate him and his care.
How could he not? It's something he never experienced before. Someone totally committed to him, without any apparent secondary reason behind it. Just someone showing him love, someone who simply likes him.
In such circumstances, it took no time for LaNi to trust Leo and to like him back. Even if it felt too good to be true, he decided to abandon himself to it, but it was a big mistake.
And the fact it all happened in a particularly tough moment for LaNi, only helped it to get stronger faster. Not being alone in that condition of constant worry about what would happen once the news of what he tried to do would reach the wrong people was a huge stress for LaNi, but the vicinity of Leo somehow managed to ease his burden.
In the last days, LaNi and Leo often spent time together in the gym of Lay's home, where the first is still staying. Sometimes they'd even just lie on the blankets and cuddle, other times LaNi would just take a nap while Leo looked at him. They didn't do anything dirty though.
One particular day, LaNi was asleep on top of Leo, in his arms. Leo had always been confident that he'd manage to stay awake and not fall asleep by accident, but he didn't calculate how hard it could be. No wonder Leo is quite naive and childish.
Leo fell asleep.
ShiiHao opened his eyes shortly after.
At first, he just looked around that place full of light, unfamiliar and that he certainly didn't reach on his own. Guessing how he got there wasn't hard: Leo. That bastard indeed restarted to leave the house.
Only after thinking of all the ways he'll use to punish Leo, he realised his situation. His own arms wrapped around that boy, asleep on his body.
In the previous days, due to Leo's bond growing stronger, even ShiHao started to have feelings for LaNi. Something totally new to him, that on his own he would have never been capable of.
Still, even ShiHao started to show the signs of being in love, without even realising or knowing how, before that moment.
He even drew LaNi's face a few more times and his thought turned progressively less homicidal in his regards, until he simply stopped to wish his death.
ShiHao remained motionless in that position, quite enjoying it in truth. He had never been like that with anyone before. But even if he likes something, it doesn't mean he would be able to do it again on his own.
He didn't interfere with the situation until LaNi started to wake up. At that point, he pushed him off of him and quickly stood up, grabbed his wrist and roughly pulled him with him. ShiHao opened a portal, leading near the city of FengShii, and crossed it together with LaNi, whom officially disappeared after that moment.
In that city, that pretty much belongs to Qiu family, as much as the whole County, he had already prepared all the needed documents to get married.in FengShii, all a Qiu needs to do is to want something, in order to have it. It's not that a functionary would betray the Qiu and report to Shiirhuang, or the Crown, if something irregular, like an homosexual marriage, was performed.
Since LaNi is underaged, has literally no rank of any kind, no ID, no position, any Sacred Blood could pretty much do as they want with him. The only opposition would come if he had a legal tutor or an adoptive parent, but he has none. He is literally like a nobody, in Xhuanghen, a ghost.
Therefore, nobody tried to oppose, or to advice ShiHao not to do that, as who would even come to complain?
The wedding itself wasn't a wedding. Just ShiHao putting his seal on the documents, a couple of words from some priest, Sethi's mark and a ring. It all happened so fast that to LaNi It felt irreal. Like a nightmare happening in front of his eyes but to which he couldn't react in any way.
He was undergoing severe panic attack during the whole time, but nobody tried to stop that and help. Nobody would go against ShiHao or slow that mess down for his sake.
As it can be imagined, there was so party. After that cold and brief ceremony, ShiHao simply dragged LaNi to his remote residence...
* LaNi disappeared at least 3 days before the arrival of SooHyeon.
How could he not? It's something he never experienced before. Someone totally committed to him, without any apparent secondary reason behind it. Just someone showing him love, someone who simply likes him.
In such circumstances, it took no time for LaNi to trust Leo and to like him back. Even if it felt too good to be true, he decided to abandon himself to it, but it was a big mistake.
And the fact it all happened in a particularly tough moment for LaNi, only helped it to get stronger faster. Not being alone in that condition of constant worry about what would happen once the news of what he tried to do would reach the wrong people was a huge stress for LaNi, but the vicinity of Leo somehow managed to ease his burden.
In the last days, LaNi and Leo often spent time together in the gym of Lay's home, where the first is still staying. Sometimes they'd even just lie on the blankets and cuddle, other times LaNi would just take a nap while Leo looked at him. They didn't do anything dirty though.
One particular day, LaNi was asleep on top of Leo, in his arms. Leo had always been confident that he'd manage to stay awake and not fall asleep by accident, but he didn't calculate how hard it could be. No wonder Leo is quite naive and childish.
Leo fell asleep.
ShiiHao opened his eyes shortly after.
At first, he just looked around that place full of light, unfamiliar and that he certainly didn't reach on his own. Guessing how he got there wasn't hard: Leo. That bastard indeed restarted to leave the house.
Only after thinking of all the ways he'll use to punish Leo, he realised his situation. His own arms wrapped around that boy, asleep on his body.
In the previous days, due to Leo's bond growing stronger, even ShiHao started to have feelings for LaNi. Something totally new to him, that on his own he would have never been capable of.
Still, even ShiHao started to show the signs of being in love, without even realising or knowing how, before that moment.
He even drew LaNi's face a few more times and his thought turned progressively less homicidal in his regards, until he simply stopped to wish his death.
ShiHao remained motionless in that position, quite enjoying it in truth. He had never been like that with anyone before. But even if he likes something, it doesn't mean he would be able to do it again on his own.
He didn't interfere with the situation until LaNi started to wake up. At that point, he pushed him off of him and quickly stood up, grabbed his wrist and roughly pulled him with him. ShiHao opened a portal, leading near the city of FengShii, and crossed it together with LaNi, whom officially disappeared after that moment.
In that city, that pretty much belongs to Qiu family, as much as the whole County, he had already prepared all the needed documents to get married.in FengShii, all a Qiu needs to do is to want something, in order to have it. It's not that a functionary would betray the Qiu and report to Shiirhuang, or the Crown, if something irregular, like an homosexual marriage, was performed.
Since LaNi is underaged, has literally no rank of any kind, no ID, no position, any Sacred Blood could pretty much do as they want with him. The only opposition would come if he had a legal tutor or an adoptive parent, but he has none. He is literally like a nobody, in Xhuanghen, a ghost.
Therefore, nobody tried to oppose, or to advice ShiHao not to do that, as who would even come to complain?
The wedding itself wasn't a wedding. Just ShiHao putting his seal on the documents, a couple of words from some priest, Sethi's mark and a ring. It all happened so fast that to LaNi It felt irreal. Like a nightmare happening in front of his eyes but to which he couldn't react in any way.
He was undergoing severe panic attack during the whole time, but nobody tried to stop that and help. Nobody would go against ShiHao or slow that mess down for his sake.
As it can be imagined, there was so party. After that cold and brief ceremony, ShiHao simply dragged LaNi to his remote residence...
* LaNi disappeared at least 3 days before the arrival of SooHyeon.
Mens sana in corpore sano?
> ShiHao 石豪 - Disturbs. <
• Antisocial personality disorder (Sociopathy):
disturb defined by a pervasive and persistent disregard for morals, social norms, and the rights and feelings of others.
Individuals with this personality disorder will typically have no compunction in exploiting others in harmful ways for their own gain or pleasure and frequently manipulate and deceive other people, achieving this through wit and a façade of superficial charm or through intimidation and violence.
They may display arrogance, think lowly and negatively of others, and lack remorse for their harmful actions and have a callous attitude to those they have harmed.
Irresponsibility is a core characteristic of this disorder: they can have significant difficulties in maintaining stable employment as well as fulfilling their social and financial obligations, and people with this disorder often lead exploitative, unlawful, or parasitic lifestyles.
Those with antisocial personality disorder are often impulsive and reckless, failing to consider or disregarding the consequences of their actions. They may repeatedly disregard and jeopardize their own safety and the safety of others and place themselves and others in danger.
They are often aggressive and hostile and display a dysregulated temper and can lash out violently with provocation or frustration.
• Hyperacusis: a highly debilitating rare hearing disorder characterized by an increased sensitivity to certain frequencies and volume ranges of sound (a collapsed tolerance to usual environmental sound). A person with severe hyperacusis has difficulty tolerating everyday sounds, which become painful or loud.
In hyperacusis, the symptoms are ear pain, annoyance, and general intolerance to many sounds that most people are unaffected by. Crying spells or panic attacks may result from the experience of hyperacusis. It may affect either or both ears.
Hyperacusis can also be accompanied by tinnitus. Hyperacusis can result in anxiety, stress and phonophobia. Avoidant behaviour is often a response to prevent the effects of hyperacusis and this can include avoiding social situations.
• Tinnitus: perception of sound when no corresponding external sound is present.
While often described as a ringing, it may also sound like a clicking, buzzing, hiss, or roaring. Rarely, unclear voices or music are heard.
The sound may be soft or loud, low or high pitched, and appear to be coming from one or both ears.
In some people, the sound may interfere with concentration or cause anxiety or depression.
• Phonophobia: fear of or aversion to loud sounds. It can also mean a fear of voices, or a fear of one's own voice. It is a very rare phobia which is often the symptom of hyperacusis.
• Dissociative identity disorder. (We all know.)
• Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD): mental disorder in which a person feels the need to perform certain routines repeatedly (called "compulsions"), or has certain thoughts repeatedly (called "obsessions").
The person is unable to control either the thoughts or activities for more than a short period of time.
ShiHao OCD categorizes into the "symmetry factor" correlated with obsessions related to ordering, counting, and symmetry, as well as repeating compulsions.
> Leo 里昂 - Disturbs. <
• Claustrophobia: fear of confined spaces. It can be triggered by many situations or stimuli, including elevators, windowless rooms, and hotel rooms with closed doors and sealed windows. Even bedrooms with a lock on the outside, small cars, and tight-necked clothing can induce a response in those with claustrophobia. It is typically classified as an anxiety disorder, which often results in panic attacks.
Claustrophobia is typically thought to have two key symptoms: fear of restriction and fear of suffocation.
Additionally, the fear of restriction can cause some claustrophobes to fear trivial matters such as sitting in a barber's chair or waiting in a queue at a shop simply out of a fear of confinement to a single space.
Being enclosed or thinking about being enclosed in a confined space can trigger fears of not being able to breathe properly, running out of oxygen, and anxiety of being restricted. It is not always the small space that triggers these emotions, but it's moreso the fear of the possibilities of what could happen while confined to that area.
When anxiety levels start to reach a certain level, the person may start to experience:
- Sweating and/or chills;
- Accelerated heart rate and a rise in blood pressure;
- Dizziness, fainting spells, lightheadedness and frozen in fear;
- Dry mouth;
- Hyperventilation;
- Hot flashes;
- Shaking or trembling and a sense of "butterflies" in the stomach;
- Nausea;
- Headache;
- Numbness;
- Choking sensation;
- Tightness in the chest/chest pain and difficulty breathing;
- Confusion or disorientation;
- Fear of harm or illness.
• Nyctophobia: phobia characterized by a severe fear of the dark. It is triggered by the brain's disfigured perception of what would, or could happen when in a dark environment.
Instinctive parameters, such as breathlessness, excessive sweating, nausea, dry mouth, feeling sick, shaking, heart palpitations, inability to speak or think clearly or sensation of detachment from reality and death. Nyctophobia can be severely detrimental physically and mentally if these symptoms are not resolved.
• Antisocial personality disorder (Sociopathy):
disturb defined by a pervasive and persistent disregard for morals, social norms, and the rights and feelings of others.
Individuals with this personality disorder will typically have no compunction in exploiting others in harmful ways for their own gain or pleasure and frequently manipulate and deceive other people, achieving this through wit and a façade of superficial charm or through intimidation and violence.
They may display arrogance, think lowly and negatively of others, and lack remorse for their harmful actions and have a callous attitude to those they have harmed.
Irresponsibility is a core characteristic of this disorder: they can have significant difficulties in maintaining stable employment as well as fulfilling their social and financial obligations, and people with this disorder often lead exploitative, unlawful, or parasitic lifestyles.
Those with antisocial personality disorder are often impulsive and reckless, failing to consider or disregarding the consequences of their actions. They may repeatedly disregard and jeopardize their own safety and the safety of others and place themselves and others in danger.
They are often aggressive and hostile and display a dysregulated temper and can lash out violently with provocation or frustration.
• Hyperacusis: a highly debilitating rare hearing disorder characterized by an increased sensitivity to certain frequencies and volume ranges of sound (a collapsed tolerance to usual environmental sound). A person with severe hyperacusis has difficulty tolerating everyday sounds, which become painful or loud.
In hyperacusis, the symptoms are ear pain, annoyance, and general intolerance to many sounds that most people are unaffected by. Crying spells or panic attacks may result from the experience of hyperacusis. It may affect either or both ears.
Hyperacusis can also be accompanied by tinnitus. Hyperacusis can result in anxiety, stress and phonophobia. Avoidant behaviour is often a response to prevent the effects of hyperacusis and this can include avoiding social situations.
• Tinnitus: perception of sound when no corresponding external sound is present.
While often described as a ringing, it may also sound like a clicking, buzzing, hiss, or roaring. Rarely, unclear voices or music are heard.
The sound may be soft or loud, low or high pitched, and appear to be coming from one or both ears.
In some people, the sound may interfere with concentration or cause anxiety or depression.
• Phonophobia: fear of or aversion to loud sounds. It can also mean a fear of voices, or a fear of one's own voice. It is a very rare phobia which is often the symptom of hyperacusis.
• Dissociative identity disorder. (We all know.)
• Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD): mental disorder in which a person feels the need to perform certain routines repeatedly (called "compulsions"), or has certain thoughts repeatedly (called "obsessions").
The person is unable to control either the thoughts or activities for more than a short period of time.
ShiHao OCD categorizes into the "symmetry factor" correlated with obsessions related to ordering, counting, and symmetry, as well as repeating compulsions.
> Leo 里昂 - Disturbs. <
• Claustrophobia: fear of confined spaces. It can be triggered by many situations or stimuli, including elevators, windowless rooms, and hotel rooms with closed doors and sealed windows. Even bedrooms with a lock on the outside, small cars, and tight-necked clothing can induce a response in those with claustrophobia. It is typically classified as an anxiety disorder, which often results in panic attacks.
Claustrophobia is typically thought to have two key symptoms: fear of restriction and fear of suffocation.
Additionally, the fear of restriction can cause some claustrophobes to fear trivial matters such as sitting in a barber's chair or waiting in a queue at a shop simply out of a fear of confinement to a single space.
Being enclosed or thinking about being enclosed in a confined space can trigger fears of not being able to breathe properly, running out of oxygen, and anxiety of being restricted. It is not always the small space that triggers these emotions, but it's moreso the fear of the possibilities of what could happen while confined to that area.
When anxiety levels start to reach a certain level, the person may start to experience:
- Sweating and/or chills;
- Accelerated heart rate and a rise in blood pressure;
- Dizziness, fainting spells, lightheadedness and frozen in fear;
- Dry mouth;
- Hyperventilation;
- Hot flashes;
- Shaking or trembling and a sense of "butterflies" in the stomach;
- Nausea;
- Headache;
- Numbness;
- Choking sensation;
- Tightness in the chest/chest pain and difficulty breathing;
- Confusion or disorientation;
- Fear of harm or illness.
• Nyctophobia: phobia characterized by a severe fear of the dark. It is triggered by the brain's disfigured perception of what would, or could happen when in a dark environment.
Instinctive parameters, such as breathlessness, excessive sweating, nausea, dry mouth, feeling sick, shaking, heart palpitations, inability to speak or think clearly or sensation of detachment from reality and death. Nyctophobia can be severely detrimental physically and mentally if these symptoms are not resolved.
Lan-i.
The next morning, punctual like a swiss clock, he heads back to YiXing's house. It's barely 6 am, he headed there right after waking up and reading the diary updates.
He knocks on the door, but at that time the only people awake are the yokels in the garden.
Leo isn't sure if LaNi Is still there, since he said he could move elsewhere, but hopes to still find him there or be pointed to the new location.
Just like the other time, since nobody told him anything, he came in the black hanfu from ShiHao's closet.
After waiting for almost an hour, he tries to open the door on his own and finds out that it's actually not locked, so he can access.
He walks inside, looking around, but there is nobody in sight, so he goes straight to the basement-gym where he met LaNi the other time.
Leo kneels next to the blanket-bed in which he is sleeping and shakes him, smiling like a cute child.
LaNi wakes up as soon as he feels a touch and sits up, clearly startled.
"Annyeonghasimnikka!!" says Leo, with his usual cheerful tons and hand wave. "How are you?"
The other doesn't reply, he keeps staring in panic and disbelief.
"Look here!" He hands LaNi something wrapped in a cloth. "It's my favourite!"
The other hesitantly unwraps the messy packet, uncovering two baozi.
"They were hot when I bought them, but they have become cold. I've waited outside for some time..."
"Who let you in?" LaNi asks with a trembling tone.
"No one, the door was open. Eat!" He points at the baozi with a cute smile.
And there I thought this place was the safest... - LaNi thinks and looks at the food. He doesn't trust Leo, of course he won't eat anything from him. "First I have to prepare, I will eat it later. Why did you come?"
"You forgot? I came to report! I've checked the diary, he didn't have the time to do anything, only work. You will be safe today!" He smiles so warmly and happily, bit LaNi keeps serious and cold.
"Gomapseumnida. You may go, now." He stands up and aims to head to the stairs, but Leo gently takes his wrist when he walks by.
"Can you show me this place? I would like to see it, but I know nothing about it, so I am worried to be on my own. Can we go together?"
LaNi Is surprised by the request, but not reassured. What if it is just an excuse to take him somewhere and try to kill him? He has these kind of thoughts all the time. "Ahm... let me just... you'll need different different clothes to walk among the humans."
Leo looks at himself. "Oh? These clothes aren't nice. I hate them too. Where can I find some different ones here?"
"Wait here, I'll go to find some clothes for you." And he goes upstairs.
He knocks on the door, but at that time the only people awake are the yokels in the garden.
Leo isn't sure if LaNi Is still there, since he said he could move elsewhere, but hopes to still find him there or be pointed to the new location.
Just like the other time, since nobody told him anything, he came in the black hanfu from ShiHao's closet.
After waiting for almost an hour, he tries to open the door on his own and finds out that it's actually not locked, so he can access.
He walks inside, looking around, but there is nobody in sight, so he goes straight to the basement-gym where he met LaNi the other time.
Leo kneels next to the blanket-bed in which he is sleeping and shakes him, smiling like a cute child.
LaNi wakes up as soon as he feels a touch and sits up, clearly startled.
"Annyeonghasimnikka!!" says Leo, with his usual cheerful tons and hand wave. "How are you?"
The other doesn't reply, he keeps staring in panic and disbelief.
"Look here!" He hands LaNi something wrapped in a cloth. "It's my favourite!"
The other hesitantly unwraps the messy packet, uncovering two baozi.
"They were hot when I bought them, but they have become cold. I've waited outside for some time..."
"Who let you in?" LaNi asks with a trembling tone.
"No one, the door was open. Eat!" He points at the baozi with a cute smile.
And there I thought this place was the safest... - LaNi thinks and looks at the food. He doesn't trust Leo, of course he won't eat anything from him. "First I have to prepare, I will eat it later. Why did you come?"
"You forgot? I came to report! I've checked the diary, he didn't have the time to do anything, only work. You will be safe today!" He smiles so warmly and happily, bit LaNi keeps serious and cold.
"Gomapseumnida. You may go, now." He stands up and aims to head to the stairs, but Leo gently takes his wrist when he walks by.
"Can you show me this place? I would like to see it, but I know nothing about it, so I am worried to be on my own. Can we go together?"
LaNi Is surprised by the request, but not reassured. What if it is just an excuse to take him somewhere and try to kill him? He has these kind of thoughts all the time. "Ahm... let me just... you'll need different different clothes to walk among the humans."
Leo looks at himself. "Oh? These clothes aren't nice. I hate them too. Where can I find some different ones here?"
"Wait here, I'll go to find some clothes for you." And he goes upstairs.
求 - Officer Trainer witness.
"I have no clue how those boys ended up in that hell. I've checked the registers several times, you see, all the boys brought there were registered. We'd know which camp they were sent from, the Officer who asked for the disciplinary action and, naturally, the reason. You wouldn't send a boy to a place like that for refusing to wash his dish after dinner... it was for serious crimes committed by trainees. Really high insubordination, extreme and uncontrolled violence, robberies within the camp... crimes. Actual crimes."
He still has the register and turns it's pages to the right one, then points the names. "Qiu ShiHao and TiHao. There is the date of their transferring, but all the other spots are empty. I even asked to other officers of the time, but nobody had a clue which camp where those boys from or what they did to deserve to end up in there."
The man sighs. "I was young at the time and not particularly lucky. You see, us officers weren't happy to be there either. Horrors were in the order of the day. Besides, the boys themselves were quite dangerous. And our... practices weren't supposed to make them any better. The Colonel didn't want to correct them, he wanted to worsen them to the point they'd become animals. Beasts only capable of hurting and killing. It wasn't the kind of place where you'd normally see some kids from rich families, not even middle-class, let alone some Sacred Blood. You can only imagine our shock, when the Qiu twins were taken there... it made no sense." He shakes his head.
"There weren't dormitories in that camp. The boys had to sleep in some small rooms, totally empty and dark, without windows. We had to lock the kids in those cells every night and sometimes we'd even receive the other to keep some of them locked for days. It was dreadful, the Imperial Prison is soft compared.
Naturally, no kids wanted to sleep in there. We had to force them, beat them... they'd cry and scream, vomit, piss themselves..." He massages his forehead. "Then those two arrived. They walked inside their cells like they liked it. They didn't struggle, did not make a breath. Even when they were kept locked for two days, without food and water, they didn't make a noise the whole time. Nor they tried to escape."
"Starving the trainees was common. We'd often receive the order to not feed them for days, sometimes weeks. They were forced to fight each others for food, undergo exhausting and inhuman treatments... most kids wouldn't survive, only especially strong ones could get out of there alive. But even those... once they'd set a foot in that camp, they would never be the same." Sighs. "We didn't form soldiers, in there. We made those boys into war criminals... But it wasn't up to us. Colonel Zhou was in charge, we were forced to obey or we'd risk our lives too. I'm only glade that bastard found death and that camp was erased from existence."
"I don't know what impact it had on the twins. It was hard to tell if there had been a chance at all, in them. Never once I recall to have seen them desperate or traumatized. They always looked eerily calm, no matter what they went through..."
He still has the register and turns it's pages to the right one, then points the names. "Qiu ShiHao and TiHao. There is the date of their transferring, but all the other spots are empty. I even asked to other officers of the time, but nobody had a clue which camp where those boys from or what they did to deserve to end up in there."
The man sighs. "I was young at the time and not particularly lucky. You see, us officers weren't happy to be there either. Horrors were in the order of the day. Besides, the boys themselves were quite dangerous. And our... practices weren't supposed to make them any better. The Colonel didn't want to correct them, he wanted to worsen them to the point they'd become animals. Beasts only capable of hurting and killing. It wasn't the kind of place where you'd normally see some kids from rich families, not even middle-class, let alone some Sacred Blood. You can only imagine our shock, when the Qiu twins were taken there... it made no sense." He shakes his head.
"There weren't dormitories in that camp. The boys had to sleep in some small rooms, totally empty and dark, without windows. We had to lock the kids in those cells every night and sometimes we'd even receive the other to keep some of them locked for days. It was dreadful, the Imperial Prison is soft compared.
Naturally, no kids wanted to sleep in there. We had to force them, beat them... they'd cry and scream, vomit, piss themselves..." He massages his forehead. "Then those two arrived. They walked inside their cells like they liked it. They didn't struggle, did not make a breath. Even when they were kept locked for two days, without food and water, they didn't make a noise the whole time. Nor they tried to escape."
"Starving the trainees was common. We'd often receive the order to not feed them for days, sometimes weeks. They were forced to fight each others for food, undergo exhausting and inhuman treatments... most kids wouldn't survive, only especially strong ones could get out of there alive. But even those... once they'd set a foot in that camp, they would never be the same." Sighs. "We didn't form soldiers, in there. We made those boys into war criminals... But it wasn't up to us. Colonel Zhou was in charge, we were forced to obey or we'd risk our lives too. I'm only glade that bastard found death and that camp was erased from existence."
"I don't know what impact it had on the twins. It was hard to tell if there had been a chance at all, in them. Never once I recall to have seen them desperate or traumatized. They always looked eerily calm, no matter what they went through..."